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I honestly dont know how to put this. I've never posted in any forums before, but I see this one and the help people are getting;and I could really use all the help I can get.
I'm 21. I live in a small city. I've got a good familly,who loves me. But I feel down, depressed and like dirt all day. I'm never happy. I cant find anything to distract me from this feeling. I used to do good and even received scholarships in my schooldays but haven't achived a single thing since the day I got into college,3 years ago. I've lost all the self-respect i had for me. I'm flunking in everything. I have a few friends but I dont think they dont even wanna be around me anymore. And to add to the problem, there's this girl whom i like so much, but don't even have the guts to talk to;and also she has bf.
I'm pushing through everyday and feels like I'll blow up the next second. I can relate a lot to the movie 'Its kind of funny story(2010)'.
In short, I feel like killing myself, but haven't yet had the guts to do it..but I fear it may come down to that.
I feel no point in anything. I feel rejected, down in dumps and depressed.
I'm writing this here, because I dont have money to visit a professional and seek help.
I'm sorry for being long but really I dont know what to do.
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