Feeling lethargic, Anxious, No thoughts, Brain fog, Head pressure, no emotions

I have 2 different situations. On the first one, I can’t relax, I’m shaking internally and I can’t feel relaxed for 1 second, and don’t underestimate what I mean by not being able to feel relaxed. It’s not just a little bit of stress, it’s really having an anxious feeling on the whole body with no relief. I feel rushed, but also stiff, with brain fog and fatigued at the same time. Now picture this 24/7.  On the second one, I feel weird walking, still tired, can’t relax but the anxious feeling is more mild, a little spaced out like someone injected me with something to make me high.. It’s hard to explain people around me don't notice this because I try a lot to cover it.

My emotions feel dead because I can’t relax. When my anxiety started 3 years ago, I had the classic anxiety symptoms. I had panic attacks which would leave me devastated. Those attacks started to make me social anxious and awkward too, but I was still able to function. Whenever I got home from school I would feel better and I still had my personal life, friends and a girlfriend. I still enjoyed sex and I was functioning the same as always.

But now it’s different. It evolved to a point where I feel like I don’t have no thoughts, no will, feel tired and anxious at the same time. Waking up in the morning or in the afternoon doesn’t make me feel better. My life is completely dysfunctional at this point, my routine is waking up, feel anxious, get ready to work without really thinking about anything, feeling uncomfortable on my own skin, take ages to get ready cause I feel lethargic, walk to the train station, get into the train, go to work, finish work, pick the train back to my city, come home, go to the computer  doing nothing, just scrolling through videos without giving a thought on them. I drowned myself in listening to music, watching youtube videos and playing video games without enjoying it but it was the only way I wouldn’t feel 100% bad, I would feel 99%.

Some of my symptoms:

-          Feeling lethargic

-          Feeling anxious

-          Can’t really take full deep breaths, I don’t feel like I’m able to breathe properly.

-          No thoughts, emotions, dead and anxious.

-          Can’t feel relaxed, not even for 1 second.

-          Skin issues(Acne, blackheads, seborrheic dermatitis around the nose and a white-paley skin tone that turns a little bit red in some spots when I’m more anxious)

-          Head pressure(my head feels heavy) not 24/7

-          Pressure on the right and left side of my head(this is not 24/7) on the forehead zone, idk what to call that spot

-          Vision is a little bit weird, not 100% focused, with or without glasses

-          Brain fog

-          Feel a lot dumber cause I can't think straight, it's like I don't have that voice while thinking, thoughts don't connect very much.

And a few more.. I don’t know if anxiety wrecked me completely and I have adrenal fatigue or something else. I feel like a ugly mindless anxious zombie that has no thoughts, no personality anymore, no emotions. Looking at a stranger or my mother is the same thing, I don’t feel that emotion. I wasn’t like this until 16 years old(I was good looking and knew my personality 100%), and I just became this bad like 10 months ago.

I’m 19 years old now with no life.

Does anybody have any idea what this might be?

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