Feeling... nothing

Hope your okay and know that your never alone!. 

Things are only temporary this feelings are only temporary this black cloud is only temporary. I know exactly how you feel for a very long time i restrained myself from being happy and i still continue to do so. I used to sit there and think why me , why am i not stunning, why dont i have a boyfriend, am i not good enough etc. You always have to remind yourself that those thoughts are depression and depression does not define WHO YOU ARE!!! no mental illness does! so dont let it trick you into thinking that you are not worth anyones time.

What we have to learn to understand is that Mental Illness and Depression is not something we over come in a day or a week or months, it takes time and it takes learning to build yourself up over and over again. As exhausting as it sounds everytime you get yourself out of it, you become that bit much stronger within yourself. Find ways to take your mind off it by doing things that you love and enjoy. No one is normal just remember that i know that you might feel crazy i know i did for a very long time but then i realised over the years meeting people of around young adults tjhat most of us are fighting the same demons! so dont ever think that the girl next to you who might be gorgeous who you think has so many friends isnt going home and crying her eyes out because she feels alone or sad!!!

Chin up and keep stron 

Darling, I had tears in my eyes when I read your post because for many years i was like you, we don't ask for this illness it invades our body.I have been on anti depressants on and off for years and I can so much relate to your post. when we are depressed our personality gets lost for a while we are not us at that time and our confidence and self-esteem are on the kerb. This last episode I have gone through was awful the worst I have gone through I cried every day for three months I had lost my identity and felt i had lost my mind. it was because i was having terrible palpitations and chest pains that I went to the doctors and broke down. All my tests came back clear I knew a couple of months ago I needed to go back on the anti-depressants but told myself i was going to do without them I realised that I did need them and help. nearly five months on I am a different person nearly back to my old self and able to laugh again I am also going to CBT which for the first time in fifty three years I am learning to cope better with my feelings and change the way I feel to me the CBT has been a life saver. I still get my odd moments the past two days i have been really weepy but i am fighting to change the thoughts and feelings something i couldn't do in the past, I dont think this cruel illness will ever go but i am learning to live and cope better. You have so much to live for and life is very precious don't waste your life darling because I feel thats what I have done for far to long I hope you can find the peace and happiness you are looking for don't suffer and seek the help unless you go through this nobody understands just how you feel keep coming on here for support to as this has really helped me too and NOONE  will judge you they will support you x

I can so relate to you. I wish I could help you, but I feel the same. I can say though, you've got us here to vent to. Don't give up on yourself, it won't always be this way xxx