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I’ve always been a social person (but have still always enjoyed some quiet time) and fairly confident, but this journey of recovery from anxiety and depression has just left me feeling like I want to run and hide in my bed at times.
I’ve been struggling being in places that are too busy and loud, I find it difficult being around lots of people, i.e an extremely busy street, and I just feel self conscious that I’m going to offend a stranger somehow 🤦🏻??? I feel like I’m floating, looking down at myself thinking, hang on a minute, what’s going on here, you’ve never felt like this before this is surreal. I know all of my sense are extra heightened because of what I’m going through, but it’s so overwhelming.
I don’t want to hide away from everything and everyone, I want to get better (I have been) and slowly start doing normal things again, but it’s so so hard. It’s just so emotionally draining and just leaves me in tears. Things that never bothered me before I’m so sensitive to. My ideal night now consists of me being in bed by 9:30pm. Gone are the Friday and Saturday nights staying up late at home, or going out. I can’t take big doses of tons of people, especially strangers.
How does confidence come back? Should I continue to partake in ‘normal’ situations that I would never have thought twice about before even though they now make me feel uncomfortable and I end up coming home crying? I have had my medication increased less than a week ago so I’m aware I could be feeling extra sensitive due to that, but anxiety feels like it’s always lingering and I’m always fighting. I just feel kinda flat today, don’t know how else to describe it. 🤦🏻??? Just after some reassurance that I’m not going to feel unsocial and weird forever x
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