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im 3 weeks post op posterior and anterior repair. All went well and bleeding has now stopped. I had laparoscopic anterior repair and hystoplexy this time last year and had a rough time with sepsis and needing a blood transfusion so compared to that this has been a walk up in the park. I feel pretty stupid writing this but though ‘better to get it out there’. I’m feeling very depressed, it’s a combination of things, not being able to do stuff (I’ve been really strict this time as I don’t want to go through it a third time), being a bit stir crazy and (this is the worst thing) feeling like I’ve been violated. I feel like I’ve been butchered! Don’t get me wrong my (male) surgeon done an amazing job but I’m sliced from back to front and up in side too. I feel violated, that seems like a strong word but it’s the only way I can describe how I feel. I know it’s silly but I just don’t think i ever want anyone to go there again. My husband is very understanding thankfully and helps out too even though he works long hours. I feel bad in letting him do all this when I don’t look ‘ill’. It’s the depression I’m f8mding the hardest to deal with. Anyone else had this sort of experience?
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