feeling quite down this evening
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Hi all
My wee holiday is going OK, retail therapy today. Visited my mum who started asking a lot of questions about my husband last time in hospital and how long things took etc, got quite upset but managed to hold it together. Went to the cinema and saw the theory of everything, good film but quite distressing for me. Since talking to my sister about things she seems to avoid or change the subject did I do the wrong thing telling her.I'm sitting here crying and wanting to go home. I don't know if this is because I'm trying too hard to be OK. I can't scream and shout in somebody elses house.
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Chik07 tina89895
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tina89895 Chik07
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I don't feel like smashing stuff up for a change but today has been building as it's been going along. My sister has been great keeping me busy etc but I just want to I don't know what!!! I want to run away. I'm sure you're right she doesn't know what to say, if I was in her shoes I expect I'd be the same. Thanks for being up late again, get a good night's sleep if you can. X
Chik07 tina89895
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melanie00616 tina89895
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Oh I so feel for you.Β I wish I could wave that magic wand and make it all go away for you.
You did the right thing about telling your sister, but unfortunately, ones close to us, when they don't know how to help, will just change the subject as Chik has put.
When I went through my problems my mum and dad just buried their heads in the sand as couldn't believe it was happening to me - probably like your sister.
Take care Tina and just to reassure you - you have people here who know exactly what you are going through and lifting you up in their thoughts.
Big hugs and loves. Mel Xx
David_21660 tina89895
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I know this may sound a little crass, but by what is happening you are moving on, little by little.
I agree, we all wish we had a magic wand, but we don't and I guess we'll just have to leave that to Harry Potter and Co.
Chik and Melanie are right and a bit of retail therapy is good! (Okay, I'm a bloke, so what!)
Films are good however, you are right that one was not the best. Bless, your sister is trying to help, but she obviously doesn't know how, perhaps a sit down chat over a nice pot of tea (best drink in the world on these (and many) occassiosns!) and just tell her, if the tears flow then so be it. Otherwise yer just dancing around the subject and she and you'll miss out on the chance to share, understand, learn and love. If you can do it, then just do it. I know it takes a lot of strength.
So far, as far as I can see, you have done nothing wrong at all, it is as it is, sadly there ain't no script. As you mentioned it is a "wee" holiday, you can leave whenever you like and I feel certain things have happened that are already going to make a difference. Could be the smallest thing now, but when you look back you'll understnd.
"I can't scream and shout in someone else's house" is a good opening line for a poem, even a song about what you are going through. Seriously now, you ever thought about putting yer feelings down on paper in this way? You've got something there which will go some way in helping you and possibly many others both us sufferers and Family and Friends!
Anyway, keep in touch you have some great friends here and I hope I do my bit to be one of them.
Best Wishes, David x
Ps does yer sis like music?!!!
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doloroso tina89895
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