Feeling so bad, I just want this over
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I feel like I'm going from bad to worse. Had what I'm assuming was a panic attack on the way home from work yesterday. was walking along the road and all of a sudden started feeling like I was going to faint, felt like I was going to collapse and die. I was walking with a work colleague who i don't know well, was so scared that I would embarrass myself so I tried to act normal while feeling so dreadful. Finally got to my car, and I was trembling and had pins and needles in my hands. Felt better after a couple of minutes and was able to drive home. Barely slept at all last night and my appetite is so poor. I care for my elderly and unwell mother, and feeling like this is making it impossible to cope. I hate my life and I feel jealous of everyone. I cried in the supermarket today because I felt like the only person who was alone. I miss my daughter who moved out a year ago and my partner who left me so much. Feels like there is no point to me anymore.
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AliceAnonymous lisa215
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I can't begin to imagine what that must feel like. I am sure you must feel incredibly alone. Having to care for someone who is elderly will really take a toll on a person. I know how difficult it was for one of my relatives. You are worth being here, even if it doesn't feel like it. You are going out and working during all of this despite how you feel and despite Covid-- you should be proud of yourself for that. Have you tried any medicines for the panic attacks? It didn't do much for me, but the aforementioned relative has always sworn by Xanax. There are also things like Ativan and Klonopin.
I'm not in the position to give any real advice, but I hope things get better for you. I believe you can find another partner in time, someone who will love and appreciate you. I wish you all the best ❤
lisa215 AliceAnonymous
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Thank you for reading my post, and thank you for the lovely words ❤
sasical72 lisa215
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I know you must be going through a really tough time but do remember that nothing lasts forever and the day you least expect it something will shift and things will be better. Hang in there xx
lisa215 sasical72
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kind words. Thank you x
jan34534 lisa215
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Lisa is there anyway you’d be able to talk to a counselor about all of this? They could help you sort it out and get you on the right track. It’s very difficult to be alone when feeling like this. Believe me, I know it for a fact. I actually look forward to my weekly counseling sessions virtually just to have somebody to talk to.
I know how lonely it can feel. I was super close with my daughter and actually lived with her for a couple years until she got married. I am divorced so I am alone all the time. that by itself is too much, let alone getting symptoms on top of it.
my heart goes out to you!
but like the previous people said on here, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s not going to be this way forever. But you need some support for now. we are here for you anytime you need to reach out.try to take one day at a time. And remember that those anxiety symptoms cannot hurt you., Although they are nasty.take care of yourself. ❤