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Feeling so depressed and hopeless.

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omeara78
omeara78

I'm really in a bad place right now and I don't know what to do or how to stop this hell I'm in I'm so depressed and tormented right now I feel like just crying my eyes out I don't seem to have any control over all the poor and negative thoughts that are racing through my mind every second of every day and night especially the non stop thoughts of dying I am attending my local mental health clinic and the last appointment I had a few weeks ago I did try to tell the doctor everything and i mean everything but it was a complete waste of time I've come close a good few times to telling one of my family or even my friend but they have their own problems especially my mother who us dealing with depression her self. I really can't see a way out if this hell I'm in or ever leading a normal life 😖😖😖😖😖

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  • holly35803
    holly35803 omeara78

    Posted

    Hi, and thanks for posting.

    You are not alone. Many of us feel depressed for long periods of time and can feel hopeless. I've been told I should talk to people more, so here I am. 

    Are you working? If not, can you make a small schedule for yourself every day? It can help keep you from spiralling downward.

    • holly35803
      holly35803 michele_76511

      Posted

      Yes. I have been depressed for two years before. Back in the 1980s before I had any Rx I was depressed for that long... and recently i have been depressed almost as long because I can no longer that Rx that works for me. I also have trouble keeping steady employment, and that makes it harder to fuly recover.
    • michele_76511
      michele_76511 holly35803

      Posted

      Do you think you can recover without meds. I was depressed in the 90's, but I fully recovered. Now, no meds help me out, so not sure what to do. I also have terrible, crippling anxiety

    • holly35803
      holly35803 michele_76511

      Posted

      Actually, no, I do NOT think I can recover without Rx. But I have run out of options unless I am willing to try ECT or some other strange option. That is the route my last doctor wanted to go, but I am worried that the memory loss will make me unemployable. I am seeing a new psychiatrict tomorrow.
    • Chip_Bunker
      Chip_Bunker holly35803

      Posted

      Not always the most wonderful thing to hear when one is in pain. "We all feel that way...."

      Sometimes that angle can discount the individual's pain. People ultimately want their pain and struggle to be acknowledged.

      When I am told "Hey - everyone gets the blues..." I wonder why should I even share?

      Whenever anyone shares pain with me I simply say, "That must be awful for you. That must be so difficult."

      If they ask for advice I try to share what has worked for me. But I try not to discount their pain.

      But sometimes I slip and tell them "They are just like everyone else...". But I hate when I do that.

      The best therapists in the world? Bartenders. They simply listen. They acknowledge. And they don't preach.

      Most people are smart enough. They know what to do. They just want their pain and suffering to be validated.

  • borderriever
    borderriever omeara78

    Posted

    Sorry you are having such a unpleasent time, I gather you must be having treatment and attending your Clinic. It is important that you can address your concerns and that is why you are attending your Clinic. Do you understand the reasons why you are depressed is there something that you can relate your problem to. You say your Mother suffers a Depression. Has there been something that has affected you both.

    Your CPN at your Mental Health Centre will be sending in reports to your GP and He may have a good idea why you are the way are and the conditions that has brought about you Depression.

    If you could come to terms with your reasons this will help you move on.

    Can we help ??

    BOB

  • omeara78
    omeara78

    Posted

    I'm not really sure what are the reasons are for me been so depressed but I also suffer with very bad anxiety and panic attacks it all started when I was 18 a few months after i was in a bad car crash with my dad ever since then year by year it's just kept getting worse and worse I've tried so hard over the years to try and get back to leading a normal life but sadly I just keep failing I'm at a point now where I just can't see my self ever leading a normal life I just think I'm beyond help at this stage. 😖😖😖

    • inna88111
      inna88111 omeara78

      Posted

      P.S.: "Normal" is overrated. Find way of life, that feels right for you. 

  • inna88111
    inna88111 omeara78

    Posted

    Hi Omera. Crying can be helpfull sometimes. It is like cleansing for soul. If you feel like crying, do it. Let everything out. When you get tired and emty, go to sleep. And when you wake up, it will be a new day full of new possibilites. 

    When I has thouhgts about dying, I started to read a book. The story was so fastinating, that to know how it ends got more important, than to end my life (it is always time for that). So how is it with your bucket list? Did you did everything you wanted? When you thrue with all the things on it, you might look back and will see, that it was fun and life is worth living.  

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