Feeling so distressed

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Hello all,

I feel so terrible today. I stayed in bed until now looking at different blogs and videos. I really feel like I know everything about anxiety and panic attacks yet I still suffer from it and have done for 17 years. I was fine for a long time and it all started again 3 weeks ago!! I've been on cit for 12 years 10 or 20mg. 2 months ago I went down to 10mg as I felt good but I have been back on 20mg for the last 13 days. My anxiety has been more intense since. Today I'm really struggling. I'm properly feeling scared and I don't know why, shaking, feeling sick, feeling really tense around my jaw, dizzy, like I'm gonna lose the plot, on edge... Why do I feel this way when I know its only anxiety!! I wish I could cry but for some reason I can't. Maybe I should be on 30mg. So exhausting to feel like this. I don't feel like going out or doing anything. Its a bloody long weekend too, so will have too much time to think!! Wish I could be at work! Feeling oddly tired but can't really sleep, waking up all the time thinking oh no I'm still feeling rubbish. Apart from my partner and CBT therapist and doc no one knows I feel this way and I don't like to discuss it. I feel so insane sometimes I can't believe anxiety can do this to someone!! Anyone feeling like this today? I just wanna stay in a little box and sleep until I feel fine again! Am I the only one to feel this bad? I can't eat either..... Anyone?

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    You sound like you have depression as well. I suffer with that so I know how you feel. 
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    Oh, Babette, I know exactly how you're feeling. I've been struggling with anxiety for close to two years now, and it has recently (in the last three months or so) come back with a vengeance. I had a good spell from November of last year through January of this year, but then (seemingly out of nowhere) it reappeared. I, too, want nothing more than to stay in bed and cry until it goes away, but the rational part of my mind (what's left of it anyway!) tells me that the answer lies elsewhere. So, despite the terrifying physical symptoms, I force myself to get up and do the best I can with the day....I do hate the weekends, though, as there's not enough structure to distract me. I wish I had some words of wisdom to offer other than to tell you that you're not alone in this and it too shall pass....sending warm thoughts your way.
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    Hi babette

    No your not the only one everyone on here goes through similar and were all here to help, it's horrible to hear your having a tough time, I've had a couple if rough days myself and it's very hard snap out of it no matter how hard you want to, it's not nice when you don't feel like you want to leave the house or even eat as it takes over your life almost. It's good you can talk to your husband about it though as I'm here keeping it to myself as I don't think anyone I know would understand no matter how hard you try to explain it, unless you suffer with anxiety no one quite understands it.

    It's nice to hear you can find work as an escape as a lot of my anxiety is caused through work for no real reason, I just panic.

    But it's a horrible feeling and it really does take it out of you mentally and physically and can end up making you feel quite I'll :s.

    I hope you start to feel a bit better soon and your anxiety eases up a bit, try and enjoy your time off, the sunshine and focus on the good things try not to dwell on the bad too much however hard it is and believe me I know how hard that is.

    Jen x

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    I am feeling the exact same, and sitting at work feeling so tense I ache and pretending like everything is ok. I am in the office with a man though so slight different behaviour just goes unnoticed. If my female co worker were here she would know something was up. I have suffered for about 14 years now and although there isnt a lot I have not read about it and I know it is anxiety and not a life threatening illness, it doesnt help as it is so dibilitating. I just cannot function so well, your mind is permanently elsewhere. Distraction is the best thing I know, I too am glad to be at work where I know I have to just get on with it, but then if I was at home I would throw myself into the chores or walk the dogs. I would love to get to the real cause of the problem. That feeling that you are going to lose it Babette, that it just awful. I always get cold like symptoms too, really freezing then hot flushes and ear and headache, but as soon as the anxiety eases the symptoms are gone.  This site is helpful in talking but slightly disturbing that so many people go through this, I would really rather think they didnt as it is too sad. If you feel a good cry will help you could always watch The Note book or something ... Hope you start to feel better with comfort that you are not at all alone in this xx

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    Hi Babette

    I want to send you a lot of hugs.  I know how you feel.It is a horrible place to be and i just wished i could do something for you.  You send me a lovely reply to my post and i want to do the same for you. I am thinking of you. xx

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    Hi Babette, you see you are not alone. I and others are suffering too at the moment. Been to the Drs today and now on Citalopram. My body is tense and shaking, I haven't slept well in weeks. I feel sick and have no appetite,irrational thoughts etc etc. everyone I try to sleep my body jerks. I'm not gonna let this beat me, I am determined to get over this with medication and therapy. I know I can feel better and I'm just focussing on that while fighting off all the negative thoughts! I hope you and others on this forum with anxiety start feeling better soon ☺️
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    Thank you all, it is nice to realise I'm not on my own. It is so weird though as I don't sleep very well at night yet I've been tired the whole day and could have fallen asleep but I'm fighting it! I feel really anxious its dreadful and when I feel I'm gonna fall asleep I just shake my head and carry on reading my book. It's almost like I'm scared to fall asleep... I'm gonna try and push myself to go for a swim a little later on. Supposed to go for dinner with people I haven't seen for months but I'm just feeling terrible right now! Not sure I'm gonna be able to do it sad
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      Yes there's plenty if us going through the same and it's very helpful to share our experiences, I would definately recommend you go for a swim as this would help you feel much more refreshed as you can get rid if some energy, and I would say go out! You will be suprised how much it will help you! And you will feel better for it I bet and if you don't at least you can say that you tried! And then hopefully you will knackered yourself out and you'll be able to sleep, try some warm milk or Horlicks as that sometimes helps smile xx
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    Hi babette,

    Please, please see your doctor, you are not alone in how you are feeling...

    I know that it is awful.. scary and at the moment you must feel absolutely helpless, believe you me you are not..the only one who feels this way..

    You can come through this with flying.colours

    I have three wonderful sons who have problems, as do I.. you can really make the most of your family at this difficult time, there is nobody that cares more about you

    Lots of love and best wishes to you,,

    In my thoughts and prayers..

    Deirdre xxx

    ca

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    Hi Babette

    I am so sorry and I understand how it feels to want to pause life so you could have some time to catch up and be "ok". I dont know what that means anymor - my safe place is on my bed under the duvet so noone and nothing can come closebecause I dont think my mind can handle it,

    I am already of 30 mg of medication and am currently struggling with going to work  - i think you are above strong to function everyday get up interact and bring home the bacon..smile

    I cant cry either - sometimes i wish I could odd that,, but again you are not alone!!!!  insanity no thats the scary part its hard to explain to oneself that this is a flaw and we still are who we are in our core! Please be kind to yourself thats the first thing I stop doing..Small things helps for me.. break things down baby steps a little juice a 5 min you tube clip a 5 min shut eye..

    Sending you lots and lots of love

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    So did the medicine make you worse
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    I'm sorry to read that you are feeling bad. I know that feeling well having suffered with anxiety for around 20 yrs too. If someone even yr GP tells you a million times that you are ok and it's just anxiety it makes no long term difference. That's the worst thing and makes you feel overwhelmed. I have several sheets of A4 with encouraging statements on them which I read every morning no matter how I feel. That does help a bit. I make myself have some breakfast (weetabix,ready brek warm milk) and put TV on. I guess what I'm trying to say is that just doing v small things that are routine and distracting helps to lower panic levels enough to feel my head is just above water! Maybe try it. Hope it helps and as others say you are NOT alone.
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    Just read this post. I noted it is a year old. How are you doing now ? I feel exactly same , want to be on my little box and sleep it off till I feel fine. In fact I struggle with ms like symptoms and just don't want go to work ! I fear falling in sick for I just got hired few weeks ago. Just feel awful ugh
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