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Feeling so miserable

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tina89895
tina89895

Hi folks

Just a wee update, second night of 45mg, slept for about 5 hours straight last night so see how it goes tonight. Day been feeling quite miserable was going into town but had second thoughts as might not of returned.

I have got to try and not type my journal and talk what I am feeling I've got to get in touch with my emotions how the hell do you do that when I've been suppressing them for such a long time. I'm going to explode. I just want to curl up into a ball and die...easy option I know...

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  • david28533
    david28533 tina89895

    Posted

    Sweetie, I wish that I knew something to say or do to lift you up. My journey pales in comparison to what you have shared with this forum. My heart goes out to you Tina. One of the prettiest girls that I knew when I was young was named Tina. And since you are the only other Tina I know, I think of her face when I see your name. I say that to let you know that when I see you are hurting, I have a face that comes to mind, and it is sad and crying, and I share your pain. David
    • tina89895
      tina89895 david28533

      Posted

      Thanks David

      I know you're suffering getting off this bloody drug, I've got all that to look forward to. I just want everything to stop, go away I just finding this so hard, my named nurse is being cruel to be kind, she's great and really trying to push me but I can't do it I'm afraid but of what I just don't know. I'm rambling again and I'm not suppose to be writing this down. F### the world. Sorry everyone x

  • dave1948
    dave1948 tina89895

    Posted

    dont be sorry tina this isn't your fault its such an awful illness.i still get bad days but nothing compared to what your going through so please feel the love we are all sending you. your in my prayers 
    • tina89895
      tina89895 dave1948

      Posted

      Thank you for your kind words. Drug round now whoopee..... Yet another day gone by.
  • Brandy964
    Brandy964 tina89895

    Posted

    Hello lovely lady,

    You're sharing your emotions with us 'virtual friends' & if it helps you & you feel your getting support from all of us too then that can only be a good thing, you're doing so so well Tina, and I know there's lots of people on here rooting for you, keep going, stay strong

    Much love xxx

    • tina89895
      tina89895 Brandy964

      Posted

      Thanks but I've got to talk about how I feel, I find it so difficult, it's coming up to the year anniversary and I still struggle even to speak his name with feeling it's someone else's story not my life...
    • Brandy964
      Brandy964 tina89895

      Posted

      Aww Tina I can only imagine how hard that must be for you, but look you must be making progress or you wouldn't have got your weekend pass - so be proud girl!! It's all baby steps, and every step you take you're getting closer to your goal, we all believe in you as I'm sure your son does too, try & find a tiny bit of belief in yourself no matter how small & with those baby steps you'll get there

      Big hugs xxx

  • Sunbird8
    Sunbird8 tina89895

    Posted

    Dear Tina please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.

    You have gone through so much pain and suffering but please try to remember that all things pass and this will too.

    I hope you manage to have a good sleep tonight and may tomorrow be a better day in every way.

    Lovely posts from David, Dave and Brandy.

    Remember that you are in our hearts Tina and we send you our love and positive thoughts.

    xx

    • tina89895
      tina89895 Sunbird8

      Posted

      I will keep trying and trying I've got to get there I can't keep on like this I hate it much.

      Thank you all for keeping me going.Time to watch a film now and hopefully a peaceful night.

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