Feeling very suicidal.
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I have been depressed for a long time but never bothered to do anything about it. 3 weeks ago I went to my doctor and she prescribed me Citalopram 20mg to be taken daily. I went back after 2 weeks and told her it made me worse. I've been taking 25mg Sertraline (to be upped to 50mg starting tomorrow) and I'm not seeing myself get any better. Recently I've started to have panic attacks which is why she gave me Sertraline. All I think about is how much better off I would be not being here, suicide seems like the only option, I wouldn't have to feel like this anymore. I don't ever feel happy, I either feel completely empty and numb or extremely down and suicidal. I don't know what to do any more.
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danielle_62923
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vera47902 danielle_62923
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I can understand all your going through. On a really dark downer I feel like ending it all too. But I try and talk myself out of it. Try and keep busy which can be hard. If your not ready to go back to work tell your doctor as going back too soon will make matter worse I know I went back to soon and ended up in hospital. But talk to us. We all know what your going through. Some people Bury there heads in sand where depression is concerned. Don't do anything to yourself talk to us. About anything ok
Vera
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charlotte1983 danielle_62923
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I've only just joined this site but felt I had to reply. I myself and my mum have both been on citalopram and completely understand this first initial feeling you have. I know that currently nothing will make you feel better and it may be like you are in the middle of a thick fog. Please know that these feelings do start to go away and you will gradually feel less suicidal. Citalopram initially heightens these feelings but they do start to fade slightly, it's a case of 'riding them out' which sounds dreadful but that was all I could do. It may really help you to talk to some one if that's possible? X
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