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So I'm 21 going into my third year of university, I recently broke up with my boyfriend of 4 months after I felt unhappy and unappreciated trying to make myself happier.
I have depression and I have tried so hard to improve life so I don't have this episodes but this is my life as it stands:
I'm single and unwanted by anyone, I have no self esteem. (Before anyone says you only just broke up with your bf I have always had someone interested -I dont mean this in a big headed way- so this is what I mean)
I could turn off my phone an entire day and no one would care or notice, I literally could cease to live and no one would even notice. I feel like I have no friends and am just drowning. I would be lying if writing this now I hadnt considered doing something or ending it all, I feel like anytime I reach out to "friends" I am burdening them, no one understands.
I honestly just have this voice in my head that screams how worthless I am all the time and how people would be better off without me, I wont have a job come September all I will have is university but that will just be lonely.
I honestly don't have a clue what to do anymore, I try using faith to help me but sometimes even that doesnt work when you're constantly ignored and beat down. Any advice?
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