Posted , 5 users are following.
I'm 23 and over the past 10 months I've not been 'feeling myself' I put that down to leaving one job and waiting for the next one to appear, while I was unemployed I was eating as I was bored so put on a little bit of weight and that's when things started to go downhill in my self confidence.
Over the past few months ive recently got back into work and I love my new job but things with my partner are getting worse.
He tried killing himself a few months ago so I've been trying to do everything I can to make his life as easy as possible and I've put myself on the back burner, eating crap and generally just not looking after myself.
Money has been tight and I'm in a little bit of debt which I don't think is helping things however recently I'd say the last 3 months I've just had no motivation to do anything, I hate going out and being social, I don't even want to get up in a morning.
Each day is a constant battle with my own head to allow me to do simple things like drive to work without panicking.
Today I went to the doctor to talk to someone about it but I darent mention it to my partner as he doesn't understand.
He just tells me that I'm lazy and that he shouldn't have to be doing everything around the house and that it should be my job to look after him.
I just feel worthless, unappreciated and I just don't see the point. I often wonder what would happen if I crashed my car, would anyone be bothered.
I don't really know why I've written on here, i suppose just to see if I'm alone in what I'm feeling or if I just need to buck my ideas up and get on with it as I'm being told by my boyfriend.
1 like, 5 replies