Finding everything quite difficult

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I've been on and off sertraline for the past 3 years, when I would start to feel better I'd foolishly just stop taking it, not even too bothered with all the side effect(brain zaps) because I knew they were harmless

Long story short, about a month ago I had a few stressful days that eventually led me back on the depression train, my anxiety was out of control and I barely could breath when i had a certain thought.

My first week I was on 25mlg of sertraline, then the past 3 weeks I've been on 50 mlg and it's made everything so goddamn hard. I'll have moments where I'll feel ok somewhat, then a certain thought or feeling completely stops time for me and I keep thinking I just want it all end.

It's asif I cant access the things that used to make me feel content or happy and I just keep dreading the next day which completely destroys my reality. Is this a side effect of the drug or am I literally going insane? The thought of being positive or active or having fun fills me with anxiety too.

I've been speaking to a counsler for the past couple of weeks and shes really nice and listens to what's on my mind, i just find myself sometimes looking at the time, or analysing reality itself as something I dont understand anymore. If anyone else has went through these types of thoughts I'd be so incredibly grateful to know if I'll feel better. Thank you x

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    Wow! The description of what you went through is extremely close to what I experienced. I even had suicidal thoughts and planning on how to do it (week 2). The talks with my wife helped me at that point. The horrible thoughts and panic attacks made me think that it was not going to end. Getting to know my condition and how my medication worked helped to hang on to the treatment. I started my dose at 50mg on day 1 and things improved by week 4. All symptoms disappeared and I could go back to my normal activities by week 6.

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