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Hey guys. I haven't posted in a while because I have been dealing with calming myself when I have anxiety. I haven't had an attack in over a week. I've completely changed my eating habits, changed my caffeine intake, started taking fish oil with omega 3 and eating breakfast lunch and dinner. Over all I have been feeling wonderful. More energy. Sleeping better. Citalopram is working wonders on me. That brings me to today:
I work 5 days a week and on Saturdays I have been helping my father in law with his business. Today I got very hot, Oklahoma weather, really hot outside and we were directly in the sun. We had customers who were being very.....annoying (usually I can handle it) however, today I broke down. I felt like my father in law was angry at me for not being able to handle it. He was making small comments, now that I'm okay and thinking clearly, he was trying to be funny. However, I couldn't handle the heat, jokes, customers, and tiredness. I had to walk away because I got so upset (still don't know why) but I basically had to leave because I couldn't handle it. He doesn't know about my anxiety and panic disorder. I've always handled this job perfectly until today and I just got completely overwhelmed. I feel embarrassed now and need some reassurance.i didn't have my normal breakfast of hardboiled eggs and oatmeal. I also ate pretty badly at my nieces 2nd grade football game (she's a cheerleader) and I think overall I just tried to do too much in one day and when I got to this job today, I was already on edge. I just don't want to feel embarrassed or guilty for having a panic attack in public like that. I've never had one at a public event. And I worry how people view me. Other than today, I've been doing great by meditating, reading, cooking new recipes, not laying in bed after work all day, just overall feeling great. Is it possible I had a panic attack because of the heat and the overwhelming feelings? I just don't want the attacks to come back like they were. I was having them daily. Just looking for happy thoughts and inspiration thank you! Sorry for the novel. Lol.
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