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I am 50 years old and due a colonoscopy, it is not only my first but it is also my first experience of being in a hospital since the age of 30 when I had a vasectomy.
My problem is I am worried of course about the procedure, but I am feeling so down about the whole thing, and I think angry as well.
I feel really bothered by the fact that this is probably the most undignified process I can imagine, I do not want anyone to know about it, I would be mortified if I thought anyone knew what I was doing and can not speak about it with anyone.
no one in my immediate family knows that I have to have this, I am not at risk as such, I had a general routine appointment at the Doctors that turned into the typical 50 plus interview, I told the Doc that my Father had died 25 years earlier with Colon Cancer and he suggested I go for a simple precautionary check, and this is where I am up to.
Do I feel odd about this? or is this a common reaction? I need to hear something from someone regarding this and speaking to the Doctor or the nurses I've seen this far leaves me cold, they appear so mater of f acte and impersonal I find it difficult.
I know deep down this is irrational, I am not ill, feel very good and should appreciate the preventive measures, but basically I dont know how to feel.
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