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Hello,this is my first post,although i have been looking around for a while.
I have suffered with osteo and dgenerative bone disease now for a long while,my first operation was over 10 years ago,replaced bones in left wrist and put a plate from lower arm through to fingers.After that i started going down hill physically,was a window cleaner but as the years went past with more joints and muscles becoming affected i had to give up and up until recently was doing a small amount of work making computer generated signs,again this is finishing.
I am on so many meds,with morphine patches being the worst,that was until the doc prescribed me Duloxetine for pain and depression.
However last week i tried to hang myself,i am so ashamed that i did this,and my son luckily found me although i wasn't going through with it.I am so sorry to my son,words will never be enough for that.
I was seen by the doctor the next day? as an emergency.However my old doctor,unknowingly to me,had left the practise the week before.He knew me well,as over the years he had been there for me,so i was seen by the new doctor.
Luckily my wife came in with me,as i became very angry and distressed at him.
After explaining what i had gone through the day before and looking at my medical records he suggested that "i get a hobby to take my mind off of things"....
I am so angry at this,and unfortunatley it has put me in a very low mood.He has refereed me to the mental health,but said "not to hold my breath at seeing them anytime soon"
Does this man think i am joking,or does he consider me not worth bothering about,because that is how i feel about my life it is a joke and not worth it......
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