First post,so low and in pain....
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Hello,this is my first post,although i have been looking around for a while.
I have suffered with osteo and dgenerative bone disease now for a long while,my first operation was over 10 years ago,replaced bones in left wrist and put a plate from lower arm through to fingers.After that i started going down hill physically,was a window cleaner but as the years went past with more joints and muscles becoming affected i had to give up and up until recently was doing a small amount of work making computer generated signs,again this is finishing.
I am on so many meds,with morphine patches being the worst,that was until the doc prescribed me Duloxetine for pain and depression.
However last week i tried to hang myself,i am so ashamed that i did this,and my son luckily found me although i wasn't going through with it.I am so sorry to my son,words will never be enough for that.
I was seen by the doctor the next day? as an emergency.However my old doctor,unknowingly to me,had left the practise the week before.He knew me well,as over the years he had been there for me,so i was seen by the new doctor.
Luckily my wife came in with me,as i became very angry and distressed at him.
After explaining what i had gone through the day before and looking at my medical records he suggested that "i get a hobby to take my mind off of things"....
I am so angry at this,and unfortunatley it has put me in a very low mood.He has refereed me to the mental health,but said "not to hold my breath at seeing them anytime soon"
Does this man think i am joking,or does he consider me not worth bothering about,because that is how i feel about my life it is a joke and not worth it......
Rant over..sorry
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lee34449 danworg
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Sorry for the length of this reply, Dan. it could be the best advice you get. Chin up friend, there's always a way. Lee.
susan45954 lee34449
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patricia44773 danworg
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I am absolutely disgusted. You have every right to rant.
I am so sorry, I don't know what else to say, I am just so shocked.
You will get good advice here (thankfully better than your doctor's advice), so keep posting and I wish you the very best. I am so sorry you are suffering as you are, I wish I could wave a magic wand and take it all away. Life is so unfair.
Pat
lee34449 patricia44773
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patricia44773 lee34449
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Sorry,
Pat.
lee34449 patricia44773
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patricia44773 lee34449
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Pat.
lee34449 patricia44773
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peter2824 patricia44773
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patricia44773 peter2824
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I was responding to Dan's anger and his dismay at the way his doctor treated him when he had just told him how serious the situation was. I have nothing against distraction techniques....in the right place.
Pat.
susan45954 patricia44773
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danworg
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What disturbs me and made me angry about this doctors response was firstly he has never dealt with me on a one to one basis,so how would he know what my life consisted of,and secondly i find it hard to believe that a man of 50 years old in my position (physically and mentally) would be fobbed off in the manner that happened.
His other derisory comment was "if you lived in buckingham palace and sat there doing nothing for a week you would also get bored there"?????
I never mentioned,or my wife,boredom at all,so this GP obviously only relates depression and suicidal tendacies with boredom and lack of personal time activities.Sorry but even in my current state of mind i tend to think that maybe there maybe more to it all than living in buckingham palace and building dollshouses (not that there is anything wrong with building dollshouses).
I will be looking for another GP,i am so disappointed my last one has moved out of the area,he got to know me over the years and that helped,but now i feel so alone and scared that i will have to go through it all again,on top of which i have another op due for the right basal thumb joint and then my right knee.Sorry i just don't know which way to turn at the moment.
patricia44773 danworg
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Sorry to hear that you have more surgery pending, I hope it all goes well. I wish I could help more, try to keep your chin up.
Pat xxx