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Hello! I am currently 2 months into 10mg citalopram and 12 days into 20mg for anxiety and panic disorder brought about by a health scare in November 2019 which turned out to be nothing but left me with terrible anxiety!
I wanted to post some advice on here and I can't tell you how much this forum has helped me this week.
For the last 12 days I felt like I was going crazy. The increase in my dose made my anxiety so much worse, I convinced myself I had every illness going and even my foot appeared swollen to me when it wasn't! This forum saved me. Reading about other experiences gave me perspective - that I wasn't going crazy and to trust that I would come through the other side.
I woke up so early in the mornings, crying, sweating, panicking and dry heaving because of the irrational fears in my head.
Day 12 today and admittedly with the help of 10mg Propranolol 3x a day I have had two good mornings - not perfect but much better. There are a few side effects to them and the main one for me is taking longer to fall asleep and dreaming very vivid dreams, but I can cope with this if the days are calmer.
I have also started a 9 week mindfullness course and CBT - I can highly recommend! Mindfullness teaches you that you are separate from your thoughts - just because you think it doesn't mean its true! This is very powerful, ask yourself what am i allowing myself to believe right now? Is this really true? I can recommend an online resource that costs nothing that can help you with this if you message me privately. I am only 4 weeks into mindfullness practice and they say it takes around 90days but I am determined to practice everyday.
I am hoping 20mg proves to be the right dose for me, but only time will tell. I am also not solely relying on the medication either, I am trying to work on changing the way I think also.
Hope this helps anyone struggling with anxiety or panic, it really is a terrible thing to suffer with and anyone who wants to comment/talk on here please do. Like I said, I genuinely believe this forum pulled me through this week so thank you to everyone.
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