Found out I have HSV-2, I will not allow it to define me.
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So, First of all if you're reading this, you're probably scared like I still am. Take a deep breath, you're going to be ok. We're going to be okay. So here's the low down, me and girl had sex on our first date the other day, than two days later the scary stuff came up on both of us. The burning and itching kept me from sleeping one night so I went in and it was confirmed. Personally I am the kind of person to say to myself "ok, this has happened. It's not going away, it's a part of you now. Suck it up buttercup. You are a handsome, smart young man, & your life is a head of you" I'm 23, I have a wonderful career started, no drug use, no prostitutes or dirty girls, I'm a nice suburban middle class kid. This thing can hit anyone. & it hit me. I joined in a different thread when I was scared and looking for answers. I found this site & I love knowing that there's others out there too. Knowing I wasn't alone, & their is people I can talk too. It helps, I don't have to feel like a freak or that I am going to die alone. Want I want to talk to you guys about is how I can do my best to suppress outbreaks, and protect others. Of course as soon as this goes down I met this girl. Who is wonderful, beautiful, & kind, she makes my heart full. She coming over for the first time tonight, & we're gonna order pizza and watch Harry Potter movies. I will not let anything happen. I think I've had this for a long time, 4 years ago I went to my doctor and did a syphillas and gonnahrea test that came negative. But the signs were so subtle and gone so fast we passed it off as chaffing. But the scabs I have now are exactly like before, this time it came back a little more aggressive but still short of time. I have had multiple partners after that 2012 episode without protective sex. & never got that "we need to talk" call/text. So 1. Is it possible to have this mild of a case? 2. My biggest fear is the shedding, to be active and not know. If I have an outbreak I can identify it and take the measures needed. I am gonna go to my doctor and discuss preventative suppression. 3. Does the zinc rubs, and the lysine in my diet really help suppress the shedding. Again, I understand I have gentital herpes, it will not define me. I will continue to love, & be me. I refuse to be anything other than the person I am.
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jack23982 Concerned_91384
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Concerned_91384 jack23982
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Back in 2012, it was like a sore that became a scab on my penis. It was very subtle. It enough to worry me to the point of seeing my doctor. I didn't have burning and itching like this time. This time it was like BAM, burning, like I couldn't sleep burning, and itching to the base, not on my penis or scrotum but in that middle crease area. Started off like a narly rash, slight swelling and redness. Nothing like those horrible pictures pictures you look up online at first. It looked like healed road rash. I noticed very small sores on the bottom of my penis, very small. Pimple like objects appeared as well. Went fairly quickly. Almost missed them. So I thought it was something else at first. i read it's suppose to be this painful grotesque experience for two weeks, but it feels/looks like I'm blowing through the stages. I am on day like 7 since first noticing. I have noticed this tingling sensation to my right butt cheek. I will use this as a precourser warning for the future.
Callie30302 Concerned_91384
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First off I'd like to say thank you very much for your post. I love your outlook on this and how you're not allowing it to Define you. Since my attack two years ago I still struggle with this diagnosis. I have my good days and then I have my really bad days but for the first two years I really never thought about it. I really tried to just pretend it never happened and put it completely out of my head living in complete denial. But in June I met a man that I fell completely in love with and since then I have literally lived in a big cloud of fear and anxiety. I was terrified to tell him and what he would think of me I mean I fully expected him to completely reject me instead he actually looked at me like I was insane for being so afraid to tell him. I take a 1000mg of Lysine and I also take vitamin C and zinc a day and I have not had any outbreaks since the initial one two years ago. I don't know if I have HSV-1 or 2 as I was never brave enough to actually have the test done my Dr. Just seen it and said that that's what it was so I accepted that but lately I've really been thinking about getting a blood test done to see but then I hesitate because I'm almost scared that it'll make me relapse into the denial stage. Thank you so much for your post and your optimism it really has helped me see that it's not this horrible death sentence.
Concerned_91384 Callie30302
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I can't imagine the courage it took to the your significant other. Im just not ready too. I'll take every possible measure to protect others & I think this is a pretty good opportunity to for some get to know each other time with me and her. The boys are on major lock done for quite some time. Like if there was a Guantanamo Bay for genitals. That's were they'd be. Guantanogenital. hah.. thank you for your input on the lysine,vitamin C, & zinc. I will bring those up with my doctor. I know that my next barrier to cross is the fear of shedding. Males really have one way in and one way out. But for me to shed (I hate that term so much) & her having a far more easily exposable area. That is my largest fear.
Tmm55 Concerned_91384
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Your positivity is really inspiring! I am 19 years old and was diagnosed back in May with hsv2.. what a great way to end your first year of college lol. I've tried to keep my head up like you are doing! I have two really great friends that know and that I can talk to about it and they have zero judgement which I couldn't be more thankful for. They only know because I was in hysterics when I got the call and they were with me, otherwise I wouldn't have told anyone. I haven't even found the courage to tell my very best friend because so many jokes are made that I feel like they wouldn't take me seriously or wouldn't understand. It's terrifying having to tell people. The guy I got it from didn't know so he felt awful when I told him. We had been hooking up for 4 months and didn't use condoms. Since then he's still hooking up with a bunch of girls and I haven't slept with anyone in fear I could give it to someone. I don't know how he doesn't worry about that too! He's still the only person I've slept with in the past year. Over the summer I was talking to a guy that I had met in my first semester of college & I felt like I couldn't get into a relationship without telling him first. I was so scared to tell him but when I did he said that the feelings he had for me were too strong to just back out. We dated for a few months but we didn't have sex because we wanted to make sure our relationship would work. Although it didn't, I couldn't be more thankful for him accepting me and keeping my secret, but I don't think I'll ever find someone who will be that accepting again. Thankfully some people like that are out there but I'm afraid that most people will just run. Sorry for this post, I've never told my story and I guess I found an outlet here.
dora29322 Tmm55
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You are smart!!! Don't change the way you're looking at this. You are right for not wanting to spread the virus to others. The way to spread it is from skin to skin contact. There is someone who will love you for who you are regardless of having hsv. Remember that!
Keep informed & Stay true ???