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I would like to share my experience and hope it helps someone else with what i dealt with.
Im 30 years old always been happy go lucky, social and sporty.
6 months ago my life changed when i was hit with severe anxiety for no apparent reason.
I couldnt work out what was happening to me, i was having panic attacks, being sick, became shakey and ended up crying in a corner desperate for help.
My brain turned my life situation into feeling trapped and thinking there was no way out from this ever again and ridiculous suicidal thoughts came into play.
I immediately seeked medical help and was lucky enough to see a very compassionate doctor and i made an appointment with a therapist.
They put me on a combination of Pregablin and Mertazapine - instant relief at night for sleeping but be warned they have serious side effects , i became very depressed and tearful !!
Next i tried Citralopram 10mg , these helped alot just to steady me out a little.
The therapist was i thought very helpful but i spent the 1st 2 months going round in circles with what i thought my problems were , this is common , i also now have a phd in googling mental health problems trying to find answers on whats wrong with me.
The scary part of all this is you think you are going crazy and there is never a way out again, this is complete rubbish, your brain just manipulates your thoughts into complete worse case scenarios , totally itrational.
Coming up to my 5th month i started to realise that i needed to start making a few changes and see how i could change my life for the better, living with anxiety was incredibly tiring but showed me how strong i was to cope under this much pressure.
My situation will be completely different to yours but the changes i made were to evaluate my weekly timetable and to put in place some goals that i could work with and were passionate about ie running the marathon and the training that needs to be put in place to do it, took up more time in my life , it was social and reqarding, this them made my work life alot easier as i felt i had some structure in my life.
Half way through month 5 i woke up and decided enough was enough with the Citralopram tablets , as i felt the only person who could control my brain was me.
I am now in month 6 and have my life back , work is flying , my relationship is 10 times easier with my gf, im eating and training well and enjoying socialising and travelling again.
I really thought that i would never be the same again and it was all over for me but i can assure you i feel now back to my old self but stronger for it and hugely more compassionate.
Whatever your situation , there is a solution and i would defianately recommend a good therapist and reassure yourself you will get through it ! I hit tock bottom and survived, its very common and there are so many people who have been there !!
My personal opinion is to be very wary of the drug route especially if you can manage day to day with some self belief it will pass !
I hope this helps, ive had all the terrible symptoms and coming out the other side gives me belief you all will too !!
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