Functioning alcoholic and then came the morning drink
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Some days I read this page and I think...wow...all these people are drinking and they are functioning! I can drink and function anymore. I become a statue on the couch with the beer not very far from me and at least 2 packs of cigs.
I used to be able to function when I was drinking when I was younger...but what I believe happened to ME...was I discovered the "morning" drink about 15 years ago.
About 15 years ago...after a family cookout...I felt soooo sick from drinking all day the day before....I was probably on line and learned about the "hair of the dog". And I drove back to my brother in laws house...and raided the beer that was left outside in the cooler.
I started drinking that day..and because I was younger...I felt so much better after the first drink...I kept going and I thought....I had the cure for a hangover!
I was working back then so only drank at night during the week and didn't have those horrible hangovers in the mornings...but on weekends...I started drinking in the a.m. if I had drank too much on a Friday night to cure the blurry vision, the awful taste in mouth, that dragging feeling.
This pattern led me to drinking continiously all weekend from morning to night...and that is when my alcoholism took a serious turn for the worst.
I think I did that for 5 years before stopping for 8 years...after finally getting help.
I read these pages daily...and it seems many people drinking are still able to go to family events...eat....cook....live.
Stay away from that morning drink....it is designed to take your alcoholism to levels that you have never been before....especially if you are not working...
When I stopped working 2 years ago and started up my drinking again...the morning drink came right back....and so did the horrible nightmare of the vicious cycle of alcoholism.
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taplow Misssy2
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I think it's dangerous though, but even so I think all drinking is dangerous. Mentally I always have in my head that 11.00 is okay mainly because I got used to licensing hours.
So Misssy2, you stopped fof 8 years. When was that?
Misssy2 taplow
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No...it didn't work that way...I have been struggling to stay stopped ever since.
Kelly2727 Misssy2
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Misssy2 Kelly2727
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But on the other hand...it wasn't impulsive...I wanted out for the previous 7 years to that.....
I am from the United States..little state called Rhode Island (smallest state in the union).
Kelly2727 Misssy2
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Misssy2 taplow
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My mind is still broken...
taplow Misssy2
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Misssy2 taplow
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And every time I drink now....I can't stop no matter how much I tell myself before hand...I will just drink today.....nope...doesn't work.
taplow Misssy2
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Misssy2 taplow
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I have not drank in 3 months...with the exception of 2 days last week....
I think about it alot....try to stay busy....eating alot more (didn't eat when I was drinking).
I wish you luck taplow...do whatever you can to stay busy...the first few days you won't feel "good" and try not to do too much except hydrate yourself, take vitamins...eat small meals....and just don't drink.
After about 4 days....you should start feeling better....I wish you luck....if you slip up..just keep trying for another day.
Misssy2 taplow
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I hope of course you were able to stop...but if not...just don't beat yourself up....come back.
Kelly2727 Misssy2
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crazyinweston Misssy2
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It takes me up to an hour and a half to finish my first drink, (usually a 440ml can) sometimes 2hrs.
However, after that first drink, I go on till oblivion.
Misssy2 crazyinweston
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And I do agree...that any bad things or bad conditions we have...give us reason to want to escape. But, there are people that drink that are deaf..or have been raped...or have illegitmate children...that can put the drink down...we can't
crazyinweston Misssy2
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My life as it is my mum wants me to meet new people. But I cant.... My self esteem is too low. I can barely say hello to men, but girls I cant talk too whatsoever, I'm so damaged by my years growing up, I cant socialise at all.
So I drink and block it all out!
Misssy2 crazyinweston
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