Functioning alcoholic and then came the morning drink

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Some days I read this page and I think...wow...all these people are drinking and they are functioning!  I can drink and function anymore.  I become a statue on the couch with the beer not very far from me and at least 2 packs of cigs.

I used to be able to function when I was drinking when I was younger...but what I believe happened to ME...was I discovered the "morning" drink about 15 years ago.

​About 15 years ago...after a family cookout...I felt soooo sick from drinking all day the day before....I was probably on line and learned about the "hair of the dog".  And I drove back to my brother in laws house...and raided the beer that was left outside in the cooler. 

I started drinking that day..and because I was younger...I felt so much better after the first drink...I kept going and I thought....I had the cure for a hangover!

​I was working back then so only drank at night during the week and didn't have those horrible hangovers in the mornings...but on weekends...I started drinking in the a.m. if I had drank too much on a Friday night to cure the blurry vision, the awful taste in mouth, that dragging feeling.

​This pattern led me to drinking continiously all weekend from morning to night...and that is when my alcoholism took a serious turn for the worst.

​I think I did that for 5 years before stopping for 8 years...after finally getting help.

I read these pages daily...and it seems many people drinking are still able to go to family events...eat....cook....live.

​Stay away from that morning drink....it is designed to take your alcoholism to levels that you have never been before....especially if you are not working...

When I stopped working 2 years ago and started up my drinking again...the morning drink came right back....and so did the horrible nightmare of the vicious cycle of alcoholism.

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    I don't drink first thing but definitely I'll drink in the morning.  9.30 wouldn't be competely unheard of.  Actually, I have drank earlier after waking up, but it's not common.  

    I think it's dangerous though, but even so I think all drinking is dangerous. Mentally I always have in my head that 11.00 is okay mainly because I got used to licensing hours.  

    So Misssy2, you stopped fof 8 years.  When was that?      

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      Hi taplow...2005 - 2012....I left my job in 2012..and thought....I could just have a six pack...I mean...I hadn't drank in 8 years! 

      ​No...it didn't work that way...I have been struggling to stay stopped ever since.

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      I also thought after 11 years I could drink.  I'm with you Missy.  I've been struggling since then also.  I lost a good job but I suppose God has a reason for everything.  Missy, where are you from?
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      I could say I lost a good job too....I was making 132 a year...I did QUIT...but I think I had drank a few times before I quit..which probably changed my mindset just enough to do something that impulsive.

      But on the other hand...it wasn't impulsive...I wanted out for the previous 7 years to that.....

      ​I am from the United States..little state called Rhode Island (smallest state in the union).

       

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      I am in Pennsylvania!  We really aren't that far away from one another.  Maybe 5 hours.  I always tell people I live near Hershey because everyone knows that sweetest place on earth, lol.  
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      hi tap...I mistyped...I left work in March 2014...started drinking at the end of 2013!

      ​My mind is still broken...smile

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    Misssy2 I  went back to drinking after 7 years, it just takes one moment doesn't it.  I'm struggling too. I wish you well.
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      Yea....its very depressing that we can't ENJOY drinking...everytime I drink now I feel like I'm breaking the law.....its horrible.

      ​And every time I drink now....I can't stop no matter how much I tell myself before hand...I will just drink today.....nope...doesn't work.

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    I'm stopping tomorrow, and I mean it. What about you?  Are you stopping?
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      Good stop tommorow!  Do you have some anxiety medication?

      ​I have not drank in 3 months...with the exception of 2 days last week....

      ​I think about it alot....try to stay busy....eating alot more (didn't eat when I was drinking).

      I wish you luck taplow...do whatever you can to stay busy...the first few days you won't feel "good" and try not to do too much except hydrate yourself, take vitamins...eat small meals....and just don't drink.

      ​After about 4 days....you should start feeling better....I wish you luck....if you slip up..just keep trying for another day.

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      Hey! How did you do? If you were not able to do it..that doesn't mean you have to stop communicating ok?

      ​I hope of course you were able to stop...but if not...just don't beat yourself up....come back.

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      I agree MIssy.  We all just want the best for everyone and someone slips like I did we should keep coming back and talking about it.  Good point there!! smile I know I was beating myself up about it but I love this forum. 
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    Im deaf, its the main reason why I drink, cos I cant hear anyone, bullied as I grew up ect. During my last 10yrs of daily drinking I've NEVER drank before 12pm, I cant see how you lot do "morning drink"

    It takes me up to an hour and a half to finish my first drink, (usually a 440ml can) sometimes 2hrs.

    However, after that first drink, I go on till oblivion.

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      i disagree that you drink because you are deaf...just like I would disagree that I drink due to many reasons I have...you drink because you have that alcoholic gene in my opinion...once people like us...put alcohol in our system...we can't stop....we are not normal drinkers...

      ​And I do agree...that any bad things or bad conditions we have...give us reason to want to escape.  But, there are people that drink that are deaf..or have been raped...or have illegitmate children...that can put the drink down...we can't sad

       

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      You can think that, ive put myself up to addaction to try and quit, but really the deafness is the reason i started when i was legally allowed to buy alcohol, i hate my deafness, was bullied through school AND college, even college teachers penalised me for being the VICTIM of bullying abuse.

      My life as it is my mum wants me to meet new people. But I cant.... My self esteem is too low. I can barely say hello to men, but girls I cant talk too whatsoever, I'm so damaged by my years growing up, I cant socialise at all.

      So I drink and block it all out!

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      I believe you...I have never been deaf...so I can't speak for your circumstance...most alcoholics...drink like I said above...but I also believe you are an alcoholic...hope not to offend you smile

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