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I have lived with anxiety, panic attacks and depression for many years and my GP has never given me anything to aid the problem. Since graduating in July, I have been more stressed than usual due to moving house and starting a new job. However, I know my mind is strong and I'll never let it overcome me.
My crippling fear of vomiting makes my anxiety a lot worse & I don't find counselling helps although CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) I'd like to try if I could bring myself to do it.
Around 4 weeks ago (July 2015) I woke up with heart burn. It felt like someone had lit a match inside my stomach and the heat was rising up my chest only it was like a cold burn- I can't explain. When I ate that morning I felt overwhelmed with nausea. I started to panic, sipping water. I hadn't felt panic attacks in a while I didn't understand how it had returned. Over the next few days, every time I ate, whether it be a biscuit or an actual meal, I'd feel the need to throw up and I'm convinced I would if my mind wasn't so set on trying not to be. As the weeks have gone on I can only really manage water/squash and tea. Solid foods- any foods i just can't face. I have no appetite what so ever, I can't even remember the last time I felt hunger. I miss food, I've lost 7lbs in 3 weeks and am now only 7st 1lb. I've always been small but now I just feel ill. I can see my bones it's too much and there's nothing I can do to gain wait- I've always struggled as it is, attending a food clinic as a teenager. I'm at my wits end, I think I may have a gastro syndrome like schatskis ring syndrome or a few others I've researched through the NHS but I need a camera down my throat to diagnose anything like that. I can't bear the thought of something down my throat, making me want to throw up. It would send me over the edge. Basically, my life isn't my own anymore. I'm a 23 year old girl who should be living life to the full, instead I'm a shell of the person I could be. I feel all alone, I just wish there was a pill I could take to make this feeling go away...
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