Genital HSV1, Scared to have sex!

I have the exact same thing as you  I got it October of 2015. It hasn’t really gotten any easier for me as far as dating. I did meet this guy online a week after I was diagnosed and my ex actually told him before I was ready. I was trying to get information so that way I was better prepared to answer his questions.  HE took it as I lied to him and wasn’t going to tell him I had it. He’s the greatest guy I have ever met. I am stuck in the friend zone with benefits. We have tried to have sex a few times with condoms but it only lasts for a few seconds then he can’t do it anymore. He gets stuck in his mind. The last time we did it it actually lasted awhile and we did it twice that night. He didn’t finish through sex I ended up giving him a b******b but to me it is progress. He really is trying that is why I stick with him. I do feel like he will never get over it and we will never be more than what we are but as long as I see him trying I can’t give give uo. I honestly th think if it was the other  around I wouldn’t have spoken to him again because I would feel the same way as he does. After sex he always gets paranoid and tells me he thinks he got what I have. I feel the same way you do. I feel that I will never find someone. Other people in here just tell me that if they care enough about you they shouldn’t be bothered by me having this. I don’t agree. However the chances of giving this to your boyfriend are very small. Fortunately (if it is fortunate) the virus doesn’t like where we have it so we don’t shed nearly as often and after the initial outbreak may not have another one. I haven’t had another one since my initial one. I would just isn’t make sure to do research. This way you are more prepared. He shouldn’t leave you because of this. You obviously got it from him. It’s the same thing he has just in a different area. I do believe that he could get it on his genitals. I’ve been wondering about this if I were to oss it on to someone would they just have regular HSV-2 Or would they have what we have. I haven’t been able to find that answer. I do feel that we will find someone eventually. It just may be limited to people that have the same thing as we do. When I was diagnosed I was suicidal. It has gotten easier to where I don’t want want to kill myself and realize it’s not as bad as I originally thought. There are some days here and there I forget that I have it. The only thing that reminds me is down there is more sensitive now. I used to shave down there but now not so much because it irritates my skin. I do feel warming  sensation fairly often but no outbreaks or any other issues. Have you noticed a change in your periods? Mine at first were really off schedule came whenever they wanted and only once per month. Now I get them every two weeks and it is getting annoying. THey are also heavier and sometimes they last 8 days other times they last 6. IDK if I helped or not but this is at least some of my experiences. 

He already has it and freely gave it to you. You don't have to worry the other way around! In theory, he should be immune elsewhere and genital HSV1 is less infectious than it's oral counterpart. Just avoid sex during or too soon after an outbreak or prodrome as an added precaution and for your own comfort. During the first four months of new infection, you are more liable to get herpes elsewhere than he is, since you haven't had time you develop full immunity yet, so wash hands after touching a suspected sore/area.