Glad I found this group. Worried Im losing my mind
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Im 50 and until 8 months ago had been on estradiol since a full hysterectomy at age 40. I felt the best during those 10 years that ive ever felt (history or endometriosis and adenomyosis). I have been flagged as high risk for breast cancer due to several different factors and was told by a breast surgeon (actually 2) that i needed to stop taking estrogen and avoid taking any supplements that might simulate estrogen. For the past 8 months i have felt absolutely miserable. Hot flashes, night sweats, brain fog, anger, depression, fatigue, struggling to keep up with my life (ive got 3 adopted teens, 2 with special needs). Im currently hiding in my bathroom crying my eyes out and im not even sure why. Im praying that this group can not only offer support but also some tangible help/advise.
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bev27429 amy94996
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Hi Amy,
I'm sorry to hear of your struggles. Yes, the menopause can make us feel as though we are losing our minds. I'm 53, and I have been going through the same symptoms as you on and off for over four years. I, too, have cried in the bathroom, and I have walked down my road at night screaming at the top of my lungs in despair. Rationally, I knew that there was nothing wrong, but I still couldn't stop the horrible feelings from spewing out of me.
Did you taper off of the estrogen or did you quit cold turkey?
B xo
shan17283 amy94996
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Hi - I understand how difficult it is to deal with the terrible symptoms as well as having to deal with a special needs teen. My adopted teen son has autism and is prone to fits of violence. It's hard enough to feel like something is terribly wrong you and then also deal with a special needs child. I'm up yet another sleepless night worrying about my own health and whether I'm going to survive this. It has really helped me to keep a journal of my symptoms as well as coming on sites like this to see that I am not alone.
toria_07298 amy94996
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bless you, im like that almost 24/7, im shocked you were on estrogen with endometriosis as it can make it much worse! unfortunately unless you can stay on hrt for life which comes with risks youre going to go through menopause symptoms, you can do this, sending hugs xx
beth13506 amy94996
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You are not alone Amy , God bless you for your kindness raising special needs , i do have terrible peri symptoms comes and go hard to plan a day its trying to control me , i tell my self not to give up and praying to the Lord to have a better day ahead of me .
hopeforever amy94996
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Hi Amy welcome. Just know that you are not alone and we have all been there. It will be 6 yrs this coming January since i entered peri and have had every symptom under the sun. Feel free to message me with any questions or if you need support. praying for you 🙏
megan41226 hopeforever
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have you had intrusive thoughts and rumination? ive became frightened of things that never bothered me before. i know its anxiety but it can be overwhelming.
toria_07298 megan41226
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i have this every single day xx
megan41226 toria_07298
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how do you cope??
hopeforever megan41226
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Hello Megan, yes when i started.peri i had terrible intrusive thoughts and nightmares. one night i got up pacing the house feeling like I couldn't live in my own body. Also elevators became frietning to me and driving on the highway. I had fears that i never had. Thank God all those terrible symptoms left me. i felt like i was being tormented some days. It's by the grace of God and this forum.that i made it through. Megan message me anytime if you need someone to speak with. God bless. Things do get better with time.
toria_07298 megan41226
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honestly some days i dont, but im pretty stubborn, distraction is key and crying sometimes, try some magnesium if you dont already xx
c14889 amy94996
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It's rough, but please know you are know alone! Praying for you sweetie! A lot of us are there!