I think I would rather be bound up. TMI alert, eating more fiber, especially, raisins and grapes. Stopped cookies, soda, chips, pastries. Also recently started Benefiber (low dose). Now I seem to go to the bathroom all day and night. Sometimes 1-2 pellets/marbles. If I'm lucky, maybe 6-8. If I drink alot of water, I have a feeling of discomfort, and immediately run to the bathroom, with another 2 marbles/pellets. I finally had a small "formed" bm late last night. This morning, woke up, discomfort, drank water, 15 -20 marbles/pellets. I don't like having to go to toilet all day and all night long. Wish I could just have 1 normal bm a day. Rectal surgeon wants me to have "rubber band litigation" but don't want to go through pain, and the band's will just fall off anyway, because I strain. Cannot afford colonoscopy until I pay all my other medical bills that are almost in collections. This is frustrating. I want my life back.