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Going to get tested for hiv today so scared

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erika90744
erika90744

So lately ive been feeling lethargic. With no reason too. Blood work us great. No problems with anything only a non alcoholic fatty liver for being obese. But i feel terrible i have like a cold but i read hiv symptoms can present as a cold so that freaks me out its been almost 5 months since i been sexually active with my now ex fiance. Im scared because he had unprotected sex with another male he says he was the top and never the bottom but i dont trust him. He told me it was safe when we were together so i trusted it. But then i come to find he was also doing needles with this guy. He claims they were new and the girl who provided them stoled them from her diabetic grandma

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  • erika90744
    erika90744

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    But im not too sure if its true i dont know about the other guys status but i do know he is promiscuous. And has had sex with many males. Im not sure if protected or not but regarding my ex i think maybe not often. Anyways i accepted him because he was the father of my child and plus i wasnt really thinking about it because he had first told me the guy was bi and then ends up telling me he was straight up gay. It seems he is also into ypu ger men that scare me as well. I thought it would be past me because we had sex i wasnt feeling any worse until he ended our engagement and then realized it eas becasue he had someone new. Of course i was upset even more because of what happened earlier and i insisted he get tested because he was in high risk and so was i but i was told there was a 3 month window so i waited i had called last week but chickened out but today im going. He said he didnt ejaculate in him but im still scared. I know not every gay guy has hiv but he is very promiscuous and both have new partners which scare me because i cant even think of finding a new partner without knowing my status. Anyone knows how to conquer this fear
  • mimibrenda
    mimibrenda erika90744

    Posted

    Hi Erika, How scary for you!! I am so sorry you are having to go through this. I am proud of you for going to get tested. Stay strong. 
    • erika90744
      erika90744 mimibrenda

      Posted

      Thank you smile. I am depressed about it and literally cut off anyone who speaks to me. Because i feel disgusting but at the time i didnt care because i thought he was the only one for me until now that he is talking to someone i know he wont tell anyone if turns out positive in 30 minutes im goung to take the test i dread
    • erika90744
      erika90744 mimibrenda

      Posted

      24 to 48 hrs she was about to make me come in another day because she couldnt find my veins. But she could tell i was anxious. Ill update this post when i know!
  • erika90744
    erika90744

    Posted

    Got my results today i tested NEGATIVE!!! Thank you guys for not judging me
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