gone crazy and crisis team not helping.

Thankyou, it is really bad here with the mental health system, some areas are better, some are just dreadful and sadly where i am it is utterly dreadful, the person on the phone was so cold and all i wanted was to talk it over.

I called SANELINE which is a charity helpline we have here and although they are not medically qualified they are supportive and spent ages talking to me about my fears, it really should be the qualified mental health team doing that but they are utterly hopeless.

try and make your appointment bella. I dont know how, do you hav xanax or something to help to get to th appointment. Can you somehow get yourself to the level of going! You really need to do this to get the help you need. Do they do appointment through the facetime or internet? We have that here too. Are you taking any medicatins for anxiety anymore? If not maybe a klonopin or xanax to get your body cqlmer so you can attend the appointment.

I have diazepam but it doesn't do much now where i've been on it for years, they refuse to give anything else, even diazepam is frowned upon here, they used to do home visits years ago but wont now and they don't do any kind of online appointments which is a shame as it would be really useful.

I do want to go but it's hard with agoraphobia and they are going to do a medication review which sounds positive to some but that really just means they want to experiment with different things again, they wont discuss therapy because they say it takes too long.

I will try my hardest to go though, it's a lunchtime appointment, morning would have been better because I have a big dose of my diazepam in the mornings but it was all they had, I will just have to try as hard as I can.

Maybe some of what you are experiencing is withdawl. Thats the huge downside to meds that are addicting u keep needing higher doses. Thisi  whole experience is just terrible and so unfair for you. Almost like a bad dream that here you are wanting help and end up barely recieving any useful at all. Does your regular gp help out in any of this? What needs to be done is for you to be placed in an in hiuse facility and weaned off the diazepam properly whilst bing placed on whatever new medicine they feel will b effective and recive proper therapy. It doesnt sound like that is what is occuring. Is private therapy an option for you? Maybe then you could get someone who would facetime with you whilst your in your house. Or better come to your home and desensiize your anxiety so you can be rid of the agoraphobia. You really need that. Maybe on your good days you can step outside a bit and maybe do so every few hours and each time just count an extra five seconds before returning into your home. Once you can stand outside for a solid three minutes then begin to take a few steps forward and repeat the same process until eventually even if it take two weeks you can walk three minuts completly from your home and back. You need desensitizing therapy from somewhere. I really wish you a ton of love and peace to get through this. I really do. I dont know your faith but bring whatever it is with you to get to that appointment. Honestly the shapre you are in id say just fo for it. Le th fear rio through you all it wants and see what really happens. Worst scenario i can think of is you would faint and thats not so bad honestly. Whoever is bringing to your appointment will still get you there and maybe they can help you. Maybe you need to allow the worst case scenario to happen outside, even if they called an ambulance so what. You would be brought to the hospital and they would stabilize you. Im not sure which is the better idea because you have imprisioned yourself so much with all your anxiety rules that it might be easier to just go out there and see what really happens. I dont think it could be worse then how you are functioning now. Who knows maybe the fear hits a certain level and freezes and your mind says wait a minute im okay and maybe reverses the anxiety. I dont know. Might be worth the risk but have someone with you. Maybe bring a sleepmask with you in the car amd put it on to ease everything. Think about it. Think about risk here because how you are functioning isnt fair or right for you at all.

I'm probably a lot older than you, but have suffered so much, for me it was like waking up with fear and going to bed with fear,

I went down that road and was on medication, it dosn't work well not for me, it's not the answer,

Cognitive behaviour therapy is the only real cure,

It's like your brain needs to be eradicated of negative thoughts, fears and literally your head wash out

That's the only way I can put it.

I suffered with this as far back as I can remember. I always felt separate from other people, inferior, self conscious, I think we have a greater sense of awareness, this lead to anxious thoughts and feelings, panic and depression, social phobia,

I came across this therapy on line,

They could have been describing me,

symptoms were the same,

I have to send details to you in a private message,

But I've made a lot of progress,

I'm married have 5 children nearly grown up, I feel for anyone who is suffering, take care let me know and I send on details

I think it might be withdrawal but the doctors wont have it because i'm still taking the meds, i think it's tolerance withdrawal.

I know i have to somehow get to the appointment and see what they say, i can't afford to go private so this is all i have although the CBT i am having is online and starts on monday so i can do that from home.

Living in my head is just hell at the moment, no peace or release from it at all sosomething has to change, i try to accept my anxiety symptoms knowing they can't harm me but it's depressing me to be so trapped in this state, i did go out this morning, clung to my husband's arm the whole time and my body felt like it was weak and swaying but i pushed it and somehow got through it, it's like a nightmare i can't wake up from.

Thank you, i am really hoping the online CBT i am starting on monday will help me, i know what you mean about the brain needing to eradicate negative thoughts and fears, i feel as if i need to somehow wash it away and refresh my mind so that i can heal.

I'm glad you have made a lot of progress, i just want to learn to live in peace again away from this fear and negative mindset.