Great fear of developing schizophrenia
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This fear has been nudging me for about four months now, and I am downright sick of it. I had to quit my job because I was so anxious and afraid and the job was also horrible. I only developed this fear because of some Youtube video on Marina Joyce and how she was diagnosed with it, and I decided to look it up and it was a big mistake on my part. There is a symptom called thought to block and I noticed that I did that, so I began to freak out, and it went away for about two months. Then I saw another video of Anderson Cooper trying out a simulator, and that got me thinking again. This doesn't make life any harder for me; it doesn't stop me from going to class or stop me from cleaning my room or anything like that. I am perfectly fine I do things and I try to exercise every once in awhile to stay in shape. I keep up with my hygiene, I wear clean clothes, and I am concerned about my outside appearance. I am worried about my grades and how my paper looks. Now, I don't hear any voices, and I am not experiencing any delusions, and I don't have a short fuse like I don't blow up on anybody for no reason. And I am not experiencing any speech problems because I try to make sure I am understandable when I speak. I don't believe I have special powers or I am God's gift to earth, or people are out to get me. Even if I hear something weird, I usually investigate it and find out that it is 100% real, but even then that isn't enough to calm my nerves. I've been seeing black dots for the past two months, and I attribute that to something called Eye floaters, not hallucinations. Some days I feel perfectly fine, and I am stress-free but then the next day comes along, and I just feel stressed like there is a certain feeling in my stomach. When I am with my girlfriend, cousin, or even my brother I feel fine - I forget about it. But there is always something that brings me to that thought and that fear. I'm going to college right now, and I am hoping to transfer to USC or UCSB and become a cop or a federal marshal in the coming years. Those are my goals. Why do I feel like this? How can I get this thought out of my head? Even if I did have this mental illness, I wouldn't be so self-aware and scared of it, right? I know that people afflicted with this are unaware of what is happening to them. All I know is that I want to be normal and happy again.
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colton35205 anon71846
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Scizophrenics 9 times out of ten don't go seeking help. Why? Because they usually don't think they're scitzophrenic. They think everything they see is actually there. This honestly sounds more of a phobia to me of course I am no doctor. I have health anxiety, and once I was aware that it was anxiety and that all the symptoms were just something in my head I got really freaked out because I kept thinking " If my brain can make me feel symptoms that were t there what else is it gonna make me do? Am I going to become schizophrenic?" Just keep yourself calm and most importantly keep yourself busy. Like you said you forget about it when you're around your brother and girlfriend. Plus cognitive behavioral therapy is a thing to look into because they will uncover your thought processes before you start getting yourself into a panic. They will also teach you how to avoid these thought processes
neil-norfolk anon71846
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Hello Anon.
Yes what colton35205 said about schizophrenic's is right , the best thing you can do if you are really concerned about your menal health is to make a trip to your doctor who can then direct and refer you to a specialist.
I have had help from these professionals and it is the only way you can make progress.