Had enough
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been struggerling from the age of 14 with depression feeling empty lost not knowibg who i am where im going in life i have no gains no intrest no paths i want to go down in life which has ended up with me having no career no money no goals no life ive had three cery very violent relationships i got stabbed raped and repeatably beaten on a daily basis my first boyfriend tried making me hang myself with him i stopped he carried on and hun himself i was starved and was fed gravy to keeo me full im now 30 i have one daughter and life is a struggle i hate everything everyone i hate going out i hate doing all this things i should love doing as a mum im addicted to painkillers my mind is never my own i question everything i dont feel like i belong here im empty inside i feel numb cold worthless i hate the way i love the way i talk i cant get anything right im on lots of medication i cant even go to the shops or for food with ny daughter without questioning why are these people around me happy laughing i keep having horrible urges feel like its a matter of time before i go im trying to fight it but my mind and body is giving in i hate opening my eyes each morning i look around and think great another day of feeling so lifeless and unhapy its draining me aging me and most of all making my daughter unhappy
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sam18386 gemma6578
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hi gemma, oh gosh poor girl! ask to speak to your doctor i think you possibly have severe depression? i think there are so many problems you need to tackle them bit by bit, try a virtual hug first, you're not alone then speak to someone, if you can't manage tonight ring the Samaritans, they will help you definitely! you need some sort of counselling and maybe medication? that's your choice but put you 1st otherwise you can not help anyone else! good luck and try to do things bit by bit including not beating yourself up. you partner is not worth it, he is horrid and doesn't treat you nicely!
bernipes gemma6578
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Hi Gemma! I can't say I know exactly what you are going through because I don't, but I can feel your anguish.
You know, people close to me have gone through times like the ones you are going through and they have managed to get much better.
What I mean by this is: it may seem impossible now, but the right treatment can make you feel better. So find a psychologist and eventually a psychiatrist so that you can work on your addiction, get regular therapy and maybe take some medication.
Don't get discouraged!