Hand Dermatitis constantly on my mind, I think I'm depressed.

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I'm a 20 year old student studying at university where I noticed small cracks in my skin on my right hand in May 2014 when my 2nd year exams were taking place. I was doing a lot of writing for revision and thought that must be the reason for the cracks. After the exams were over it was still there and it was showing signs of getting worse so I went to the doctors and they perscribed me with a steroid cream and moisturisers. During the next 6 months up to November 2014 the condition worsened a lot to the point where it is covering all of my right hand fingers and thumb with some of my palm. I've been using Cetraben for nearly 3 months now and also tried about 10 different creams, cotton gloves at night, moisturising as much as possible, specialist soaps etc... nothing worked.

I recently went to a dermatologist who perscribed me with a coal tar paste for night time as well as Epaderm. This still isn't working and now I feel my enjoyment of life is coming to a halt and is declining.

My stress reliever used to be to lift heavy weights in the gym which I've been doing for about 4 years, now when I go it's just not the same. I can't grip anything properly. I've worked my ass off to where I have and I'm slowly losing strength and everything's declining because of my hand. 

Having to constantly moisturise in the day makes everything hard, such as cooking, cleaning, studying with books and computers, shakng people's hands.. It really does suck sad Whenever i have positive thoughts about anything the thought of my hand intrudes and sends me thinking badly again.

About a month ago I noticed cracks developing on my left hand index and middle finger, now this is spreading quite fast and I feel that if my left hand gets as bad as my right hand I'll be incapable of doing anything.

It's affecting me so badly I really can't take it any more sad What can I do?

 

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    I know how you feel chris, its a very debilitating and stressfull thing to have. You constantly think people stare, which in actual fact they dont, because you hate having it so much, to you itl be extreme, but to other people it wont look to bad. I have the same condition on my face and now on my hands, and sometimes i dont want to go out in public, my friends say its not that bad but i cant even look in the mirror, it effects my mood too, and dnt quite know how to cope, but i do know that when im less stressed its not as bad, so maybe try goin for a relaxing swim, bath or a walk, every day, or listen to reiki music, and also apply the cream that works for you and see how you get on. I hope this helps, as it has done for me in the past.

    Cheryl.

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      I'm sorry to hear about your condition. Mine hasn't got to the point where I'm concerned on people seeing it because it's mainly on the face of my hand and not the other side.That's true about the reduced stress, my mindset eases a little from the negativity but I have a ridiculous amount of final year uni work and it almost feels too much.

      Thanks for your response.

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      Hope you get on ok, and you dermatitis clears. Good luck with your exams. Im sure you'l do good. Take care.

      Cheryl

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    Hi Chris - sorry to hear of your eczema problem. I don't think you are depressed but instead distressed and frustrated at the lack of control you have over your condition and the fact that as yet no medications are working. You need to return to your dermatologist and explain that the current medication is not working and ask for something else - do not be fobbed off! There are many alternatives by way of topicals, PUVA/light therapy, systemics and biologics that can be tried until you find something that is suited to you by way of clearing. Sometimes it is a long road that you have to travel but there is always light at the end of the tunnel but you need to keep focussed on believing it will be cured at some time in the future. I can tell you categorically that the more you stress over your situation the worse it will become because I have been there, am still there but I have now adopted a new positive mindset in order to survive and rationalise my situation and give myself the best chance of ridding myself of this hideous ailment! Whilst I appreciate that this is easier said than done you really need to find a way whether this is through positive thinking, distracting techniques or looking to see how you can make the most of your current physical limitations. If you cannot do lifting then use different equipment at the gym which doesn't involve using your hands, ensure you go out regularly and enjoy a good social life. Your studying will take up a fair proportion of your life. Do you know yet what career/profession you want to follow? Don't think of yourself as different from your friends, work/play within your limitations, join new clubs/societies. I have psoriasis on my hands and severely on feet limiting my ability to walk/exercise etc due to the cuts and splits and it has now broken out on my scalp and other parts of my body. Like you I went through a gamut of emotions but I have learnt that it is up to me to make the best of a bad situation - que sera sera but of course this is not easy and will take time, do not expect instant miracles. I am due to start methotrexate at the end of this month on - this may or may not work but I am going to try to tolerate it. If not I will just have to go on to the next thing. I could suggest many creams/lotions and potions you could try but don't want to overwhelm you. If you would like some ideas then please message me and I will do my best to suggest some things that might help. I am trying magnesium lotion at the moment after much research but today is the first day of using it so cannot comment as yet. I will think of you and send positive vibes for improvement. Let us know of your progress and don't be afraid to ask questions or for help. 
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      I only visited the dermatologist 10 days ago but I'm just very frustrated at the moment, they did say it might be psoriasis. I will stick with the medication for a couple more weeks and assess the improvement if any. They did say come back on the 9th March to look at its condition, then they'll do a patch test on home products I commonly use then the next step would be the light therapy. In terms of career, I've lost interest in what I'm studying and do not wish to pursue a future in it (Surveying/Property). I sometimes go to the gym to see if i can have a proper workout again but always just get frustrated with it, working out is something I enjoy with a passion and I hoped to become a fitness instructor/trainer in the future, I'm now very anxious of what lies ahead of me because that was my backup plan and now I feel like it may not be possible. The suggestions of creams etc would be useful I may message you after a few more weeks of trying my current ones, I do appreicate it. I met my tutor the other day and the negative thoughts swimming around my head caused me to outbreak crying which is unlike me so it's definitely impacting my life quite badly, I wish you the best of luck with your new lotion and appreciate your time responding. Thankyou.

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