Has anxiety caused you to have a lonely life?
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Hi everyone. I suffer from GAD and depression. I also have very bad social anxiety disorder that has basically left me completely alone, no friends and only a couple of family members that I can still talk to. I've been this way for years and slowly my life became more and more restricted. To be with people I will go to the mall or the book store just to be around others. I have no social life at all. I'm also filled with anxiety and dread early in the morning, my heart beating a mile a minute, and my mind is racing. I'm on Xanax XR, Effexor and Mirtazapine to help me sleep. I'm getting tired of being on meds to cope but my phychiatrist does not want me off them. I know therepy will help but my insurance won't cover enough sessions. And I get home late from work so I don't have time to go. I mean who has the time to see a therapist on a weekly basis if you work? So please I'm just looking for some one to talk to, maybe someone going through something similar.
Thank you for reading this.
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su1977 don73349
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Hi Don, I'm sorry for your struggles. I have bipolar II, anxiety, and severe panic disorder. While I do have some family and friend support I can still understand your loneliness. I too am very reclusive. These conditions definitely limit me so visiting friends and family is mentally exhausting because I have to fight very hard with myself to be "normal". As a result I don't do much socially with others. I do have a spouse so that helps a bit but it doesn't mean I don't still feel the loneliness. Do you work? I'm somewhat functional so I do work although that's a huge struggle at times. Being around an office of people can sometimes help me. I also have a dog. They say pets can often help in the healing process. I know I rely on my dog very much. Its not uncommon for me to take her with me when I have to be out. I'll even take her to work with me if weather permits (I have to leave her in the car in our parking garage). She's done wonders for me. Maybe a pet can help? At least it forces you to take care of something else and they're a companion so you don't feel so alone.
I'm sorry your benefits limit therapy sessions. Not sure why they assume people can be cured by a specific amount of visits. Is there group therapy that is available? I found a local one and I'm starting group therapy in a few weeks. Its a good way to be with others as well. I find it to be a little relieving being in a room with others that also share the same struggles - no judgement. Maybe other online support groups such as this forum?
I understand how tough it is to have this awful condition. I wish for the day I can find that magic pill or to bump my head so everything falls back in place and I'm normal again. I often ask how this happened. It feels like it was just a sudden thing. I try and retrace my steps but no luck in finding an answer. I'm just stuck trying to clean up this mess.
Anytime you need support definitely post on the forum. I check at least once a day. I'll certainly try and offer support. 😊
steven47549 don73349
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Hi there, I've dealt with similar issues for the majority of my life. I have always had social anxiety, though it's lessened over time (as things like health anxiety moved to the forefront). I have a hard time interacting under certain conditions. I have managed to forge a small handful of friendships over the years, and it's because I found people who connected with me based on common interests. I have a lot of passions and hobbies in niche, specialized areas, and finding people who share those interests has allowed me to forge friendships, and have the option of a limited social life even if I don't always pursue it (I tend to be a reclusive person because of the anxiety). I'm naturally very awkward, and going through school as a kid I was constantly in a state of anxiety. I find interacting with people to drain much of my energy, and there are only a few friends I can truly be myself around. Most of my socialization has come from significant others, I've consistently had girlfriends over the years, and that was my main source of socialization asides from my small circle of friends. It still remains a constant struggle though, and it's complicated by the other forms of anxiety I deal with. My best advice would be to try to find people who have common interests with you. I was able to use the internet to make connections and socialize with people who eventually became real life friends, or partners.
steven47549
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I'd also like to say that you should feel free to message me if you ever would like to chat. I have been dealing with extreme anxiety on and off for my entire life, and social anxiety has been a part of that.
don73349 steven47549
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Thank you Steven for your reply. My anxiety always tends to be at it's peak in the morning and then it slowly subsidizes. I often find it difficult to be around others and I get the feeling I'm always being judged or they can tell that I'm nervous. So I mostly avoided social events until people just stopped inviting me. That's what happens, people get tired of the excuses and give up. So now I find myself mostly alone and it's a scary place to be. I do have interests/hobbies mostly photography. How do you connect with like minded people. Do you know of any websites I could visit. I really do need to connect with others, loneliness just amplifies my depression and anxiety.
Thanks again Don
lisalisa67 don73349
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yes it does make yyou lonely at times. And you lose friends and such. Aling the way youll find a new friend. Be patient rigt now your focusing on work and yourself, if you master being your friend you have accomplished a lot.
Nithing erong with going out in public to be among people, the gym is a good place too.
steven47549 lisalisa67
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I second the gym recommendation. Some people have difficulty working out because of their health anxiety (they fret over the elevated heartrate, thing working out could aggravate an underlying condition, etc.), but if you can overcome the trepidation and work out, there are some real benefits. I also find there is a sense of comradery at the gym, that you don't find in a lot of other public venues. You might become acquainted with some regulars over time. Also, working out is very good for stress reduction, endorphins are released, and when you're in good shape you generally feel better all around physically.
steven47549
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*think, I've really been off my typing game lately.
brandon69357 don73349
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I can completely relate. When I feel fine I am perfectly social and kind and caring. This disorder is very isolating and it makes you selfish because it's PANIC TIME and it's right in your face. Then you're tired and want to be left alone and safe from outside things that make you/ us freak out. I personally think it takes a combination of therapy and medication or I should say that's what worked for me. I also keep a log/journal and keep writing about my progress or lack there of. I will not be defeated by this because I personally have came out of this s**t and gotten to the other side and it is glorious to be alive when you're feeling well. I won't stop until I take that sweet relaxing sigh and say that was crazy but it's in the past and now I can be productive and healthy and move forward. I am having a very hard time right now too. It's a struggle but you should know that many many of us are out there. I want you to know that I am happy to chat with you at anytime. It helps having someone to relate to. Counseling is frustrating sometimes because I don't really think they get it but maybe I'm just a Scrooge today. Let me know if you need to talk. You're not alone.
Gottalovethisme don73349
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Yesssss I'm 33 single mom of 3 it's very lonley when nobody wants to hear u say man my leg hurts are my belly is upset are dang my elbow is bothering me
lisalisa67 Gottalovethisme
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MadwomaninAttik don73349
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Hi there. I've had anxiety with panic attacks for over 13 years. They started when I was 19 and in college. I've been on sertraline (100 mg once a day) for those 13 years. It helps, but it isn't a miracle drug, and I stil have to deal with the panic attacks on what seems a daily basis. Has my disorder made me lonely? Well, I have two 4 year old twins and a really caring significant other. In that sense, no. In other senses, like, do I feel alone in having to deal with the panic attacks, yes, Sometimes I feel lonely in the sense that I must be the only one on earth suffering with panic attacks. Whenever I go to the emergency room because I think I'm having a heart attack, I feel lonely because I can't imagine anyone else going to the E.R. for the same stupid reason that keeps me returning to it. I feel especially lonely when it's 2 A.M. in the emergency room and I'm in a room, all by myself, waiting on a chest x ray and blood work to come back just to tell me I'm normal and it's all in my head.
su1977 MadwomaninAttik
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I understand the feeling. I too have taken myself to the ER because of a severe panic attack. I've had anxiety now for roughly 20 years. It got bad in my mid 20s, got it until control but then came back worse in the past year or so. My husband has been supportive but when the panic sets in, it doesn't matter who's around, I feel all alone in it. I've been working with a therapist and psychiatrist during this past year. I've made some progress but seems minimal even though they both say it's not. I'm still working to find the right cocktail of medications to treat this. Have you considered looking into a different medication? I signed up for group therapy. The first few times I went, it was very helpful. It just became too far to drive for me. Fortunately there's a new group in my neighborhood. I would suggest trying to find something similar. It was comforting knowing I was in a room with others in the same situation. It wasn't so embarrassing or awkward anymore. I'll also be adding supplements to my diet. I hear magnesium and fish oil, along with others, can offer some help. I really hope you can find peace with your mind. Its the hardest obstacle I've ever had to face in my life but I'll keep trying. I'd like to start having fun again.
don73349 MadwomaninAttik
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Anxiety is so debilitating. Mine always peaks in the morning, I seem to worry about everything and it gets amplified 10 fold. Before I was prescribed mirtazapine I was waking at 3:00 or 4:00 in the morning with a racing heart and constant worrying thoughts. But now I sleep better but I do get up I still have a feeling of dread and bad anxiety. With me the friends I did have simply got tired of my excuses for not going out and moved on. Even as a kid I was alone a lot but it didn't bother me so much. I'm an only child so I was used to it. I did have a small circle of friends and that was fine with me. But now that I'm older being alone and having to deal with my disorder on my own is scary. It's just not easy for me to meet people.
So thank you for your reply and good luck.
don73349 su1977
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Thank you sue for your reply. I'm tired of living life this way. Of being alone and the feeling that something will go wrong at any minute. I've isolated myself from those who were once part of my life. I'm afraid of meeting people because of social anxiety. I wake most mornings with anxiety and a feeling of dread. I do work because I need to support myself, but I try so hard to hide my anxiety. I take meds, Effexor, Xanax, and mirtazapine to help me sleep. I'm afraid of what will become of me. I never been married and don't have any children. So yes I'm completely alone. I go to the mall or bookstore just to be around people. I need help, I need friendships but don't know we're to start.
Thank you so much again for your thoughtful reply.