Hey! Im in my early twenties also and have genital hsv1, I got it nearly 2 years ago from a random hook up (I know, very classy) when I found out I was torn up, had to google translate an informative letter to the guy that he should be careful next time (he didnt understand lol) but then realised it was just as equally my fault for not taking the same precautions. At first I wasnt sure whether I got it from an ex who had an oral coldsore outbreak just prior to our break up, or whether it was the rebound that I got it from, but the thought from getting it from my ex was somewhat more soothing to my mind. It reassured me that because it came from someone I love, I couldnt regret it perse.. turns out it was the rebound anyway.
A relationship makes it different I guess, because you feel like youve been betrayed on some level?
Does your boyfriend help you? On the upside, you both now have it which could make things a little easier. except that if one of you has an outbreak one week and then the other the next week.. thats two weeks of no or painfulsex! god forbid you get your period the next week lol!
Im only making a joke because I completely and utterly understand where youre coming from and get the same frustration about painful sex and sensitive skin.
Although people tel me its type 1 so I shouldnt get as many outbreaks, its almost every month at the moment. My triggers are also stress, certain pads, fresh underwear (as in, straight out of the wash rather than being in the cupboard for a couple days before wearing), even thinking about getting an outbreak gives me an outbreak! I find salt water helps, when I go to the beach everyday things seem a lot more under control, also zinc tablets when I get an outbreak help heal them more quickly. as well as some other supplements to help the immune system, best to ask your doctor before taking anything.
As you are finding with tight jeans and stress, youll discover more and more about yourself the longer you have it. you might find it seems to dissappear after some time and not return, or it might impact you more heavily and you might be hindered from walking again. But if the latter is the case, there are ways to help keep on top of it. Medication is meant to help prevent outbreaks and lessen the time the virus is active.
If you havent already I suggest doing as much research as possible about the virus. I found that I only accepted myself once I had done hours of reading on everything about it. also opening up and sharing with people closest to me helped a lot, its like once youve said it outloud, a weight is lifted off.
Try and understand your boyfriend as much as you can, that he too has to deal with it himself, and the guilt of giving it to you. I know its hard, and sometimes it will be worse than others. But you can and will enjoy sex again!! If your partner is careful and you both take it slow to begin with, its can get easier and then the pleasure kind of outweighs the irritation making it unnoticeable, somewhat.
Go see a doctor for the bleeding!
I hope it all gets better for you! 1
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