Posted , 5 users are following.
Is it right to self harm to get the motivation, energy enthusiasm to make me get up and go out to a 60th birthday afternoon tea at a very posh hotel. I agreed to go to try and be sociable which is one of the things I am suppose to try and do. I am lying in bed in a state getting angry irritated at myself because I've got no motivation, so the circle starts , angry at myself, feel useless that I get like this, hate myself for being like this then hurt myself to feel something then REALLY angry then I will go. Then likely take some medication diazepam and then have a few drinks this afternoon and put on a front. Not sure what I'm saying really as my heads a mess yet again. Been a real mess for the last 4 weeks more than normal. Stuff life it's s.....
Thanks whoever reads this rant.
3 likes, 11 replies