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Everyone has been a bit quiet in here the past week or so......Don't tell me...you all have a life!!!!!! :roll: :wink:
I am not coping too well at the moment and thought i would write it in here....I feel like such a burden to my family and friends...I feel like I am always complaining or not able to do much due to the constant pain..... :cry: I talked to my hubby about it tonight and he was very lovely and caring as always with me, but i still feel horrible....
I think one thing that is going on with me is that I am grieving....grieving the fact that I can NEVER return to my previous job of 24 years!!!!!! (I have been told this by my Workcover Doctor and case manager) I am one of those rare people that loved what i did....I worked in a home with disabled people....I was happy doing my job, even though i was in pain all the time....I just tried to ignore it as much as possible and when it was too much, i took painkillers to get thru my shift..then i would go home and fall asleep...lol I feel lost without my job....I feel like i was making a difference to peoples lives....It was something i was good at, and thats NOT something i usually say about myself....
The constant pain is wearing me out....I'm always tired...I have no motivation to do much at all.....Im frustrated that i can't do simple housework chores as i have discovered that certain things trigger off worse pain, so i am forcing myself to not do them.....but damn its HARD!!!!!! :evil:
It's only 8 sleeps till i see the Neurosurgeon......I'm trying not to pin too much hope for a solution, but its hard to not think like that...I want some light at the end of this damn tunnel!!!!!!
OK....I think i have ranted enough now...Maybe i am at the anger stage of grieving.... :wink: :roll: If thats the case....bargaining is next and then acceptance...so hopefully i am nearly out of this anger phase!!!!
Thanks for listening....Jas..xx.. :wings:
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