Having anxiety about possible HIV
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I just posted in the sexual health discussion page..but I felt the need to post here as well cause I am scared. basically I had unprotected sex with someone promiscuous repeatedly and found out too late they didnt actually know thier HIV status. I was naive in trusting him..but I really hope this decision wont affect me for the rest of my life. since finding out I cant stop thinking that I have HIV...i cannot tell what symptoms are real and what is in my head...I've been fatigued beyond belief lately, my whole body hurts, my throat hurts, my muscles feel like I've been hit by a bus, I'm coughing, im sweating, my heart is beating very fast all the time, I am getting headaches, everything looks like a rash to me...I just am scared...sometimes I cant breathe I just get very overwhelmed...and I am so mad at myself for trusting this man...I cannot think of anything else honestly I'm at work and I'm wearing gloves now and I'll be sitting and I know HIV doesnt work like this but I cant help but feel like everything I touch I am getting HIV on and I'm spreading it to everyone...my last possible exposure was the 18th of December so I've got three months of my mind playing so cruel tricks on me to deal with..and idk what to do...if anyone can offer some advice I would really appreciate it..
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jan34534 im78803
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The only way you’re going to find anything out is by visiting your doctor and having some testing done. it’s more miserable to sit around and think about it then to just go and get checked out. some of your symptoms could be caused by intense anxiety.
don’t automatically trust a stranger. People have to earn your trust. And that takes time to really get to know somebody.. value yourself enough to take care of yourself . take care!
im78803 jan34534
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thank you for your reply, it's too early to test for me sadly the 4th generation tests are not available to me so I have to wait till 3 months after the exposure...I can test now but it wont be accurate...and I did know him sadly I've known him for a year and been in a relationship with him for 6 months...what I didnt know is there were about 2 months in there that he slept with 22 people and never got tested after...he doesn't understand why I'm upset...but im just so scared..idk if he and I can patch things up or not a negative test will help but the trust I had is gone sadly thank you again for your reply
joe97594 im78803
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i feel for you as i had the same experience , you need to be strong and wait and do test at 4 weeks with 4 generation AB/Antigen . im sure it will be negative then another one at 3 months to be sure
im78803 joe97594
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thank you for replying I am just so scared I dont think I'll be able to look my family in the eyes again if I have HIV..they will be so disappointed..