Health Anxiety

I have suffered for years with this disease. I hate it ! My mind takes over and controls my entire life. I always feel i have something horrible and even when given a clean bill of health, I doubt it, I did really well for the last year and half, no panic attacks, or health issues. I felt great and stopped my lexapro for at least 5 months. Recently, my sons young friend was diagnosed with cancer, my sis in law is in final stages of cancer, my daughter had emergency surgery to remove large ovarian cysts, my favorite Aunt passed away, and my cousin in law committed suicide. All this in about a month time. About 4 months ago, i felt a wierd dull pain in pelvic area, i had the full workup, papsmere, pelvic u/s, vaginal u/s, and all was well. When my daughter got sick, i swear that pain worsened 10x and then I develeped all kinds of crazy pains. Went to dr, had a complete physical ran, had a mammogram, and everything was perfect. I still fear i have cancer in my system. My dr and another dr and 2 nurses later assure me cancer markers are present in many blood tests and my dr is hesistant to run any other tests saying she is that sure there is nothing wrong with me. Why wont my head believe this? Also, no negative comments or disagreements with drs would be appreciated as it may trigger a panic attack. Tried effexor for 3 weeks and feel more agitatted may go back on lexapro. Anyone else have these fears? As i said, I have done this many times in the past but this is the longest an most ongoing. Maybe if they could tell me why my dull pain is there, that would help but so far, nothing,...Thankyou and good luck to all

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