health anxiety does'nt seem to go away😣
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Hi i have'nt been on here in a while, but after reading some people's posts i can totally relate!! Ive had HA for 18months now and its awful, any ache or pain or rash or anything i would think the dreaded C word straight away. I would cry for hours and constantly book appointments with my gp, at the min im convinced ive got skin cancer as ive seen a mole type thingy near my ear on side of face that ive never noticed before😢 Im in the doctors today to get it looked at but im totally convinced its SC. I cried so much last night and my partner try's to reassure me, i feel guilty on him for having to put up with me and feel awful on my two children as im not the happy go lucky mum i was before. Its so awful and i can relate to a lot of u out there that are going through this horrible anxiety disorder x
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helen82200 nicola_01942
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nicola_01942 helen82200
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Sorry helen ive only just seen this post... i didnt get any notification through, i know it was a while ago but didnt want to ignore u. It truely is awful... im in a sh*t place again at the mo after an internal, my doctor told me i had an ectropion on my cervix. She said it was nothing to worry about but my health anxiety has spiralled BIG TIME 😢. Hope your ok x
sweethheart5703 nicola_01942
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joana22230 nicola_01942
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annie1963 nicola_01942
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lisalisa67 nicola_01942
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idk about completely stopping it but real good idea to learn a lot about it. Tons of books and apps and workbook to help you online. The more you know the less you will fear. And oh biy fear is the driving force of it so it takes it doen a few a few notches that and therapy. Dbt or cbt. If yiu have had any trauma in your life go for the dbt.will work better.
nicola_01942 lisalisa67
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What u say makes sense lisa. Im in such a mess at the mo as after an internal my doctor said i have an ectropion on my cervix... she said its nothing serious but to cut a long story short i ended up bk in her office this morning in tears and asked her to refer me to gyne😢. Im convinced its going to be cervical cancer or some other cancer down there. I feel so strange down below too... the only way i can explain it is it feels like ive got a water infection when i havent... discomfort. Dont know if thats coz im thinking about down there or if its coz there is something bad going on. HEALTH ANXIETY SUCKS !! Xx
lisalisa67 nicola_01942
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nicola_01942 lisalisa67
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Are you sure its not linked lisa???? Im so scared i have read so much online and its scared me. I feel strange down below like ive got a water infection but ive not got one... do you think thats because im worried about down there thats why ive got an uncomfortable feeling? Sorry to rant on im just so scared 😭 xx
Sillymop nicola_01942
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Hi Nicola sounds like a very tough and trying time for you. You stated that you have a lot of stresses around you... Anxiety and stress doesn't leave our immune systems at its best. Nor does depression. In fact, I think when we are emotionally low we are more likely to catch things.
You had a nasty virus which made you feel ill and its lingering. Anxiety and stress can hinder our recovery. I have been very stressed at points in my life and ended up getting infections after bugs - my GP felt my emotional state probably didn't aid in my recovery.
You will be okay you are not ill without reason, you have a cause and now you need to let yourself heal. Sometimes viruses can make us feel ill for days, weeks or even months after.
I think talking therapy may help you greatly in dealing with some of your current stresses
nicola_01942 Sillymop
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Hi thankyou for your reply... i dont have a virus though haha. Im currently worried sick about an ectropion on my cervix... gp saw it when she did an internal, ever since i have not felt right down below... bit uncomfortable like a water infection (but i dont have a water infection) petrified its some sort of cancer going on down there... like cervical cancer. 😢 i have serious health anxiety and have done for 2 1/2 years xx
Sillymop nicola_01942
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Nicola, I am so sorry my response was for a different post! I wrote it on my smart phone - which doesn't seem to like this website currently and is jumping between posts I have read/deleating my comments! I think I briefly checked your name before posting but did not check the post itself to check it had no skipped again. I do apologise and I will read YOUR post now xxx
Sillymop nicola_01942
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I read your post. I feel even worse for my mistake now and I do apologise!!!
I think you need to seek out counselling with someone who can talk through all your fears, through your anxiety and health anxiety and see if you can find what has triggered this in you...i wondered if perhaps the enormity of having children makes you fear not being there with them?
I know what you mean when you say you cry to your partner and then feel guilty. I feel like I have near enough ruined our entire year with health anxiety...it's a heavy feeling and the guilt only makes us worse.
I really hope you can find someone to talk to and plan a route out of this for yourself, you seem like a nice person and I am sure your children are lucky to have you. You don't have to have it together all the time to be a good mum. No one is perfect we all have things that bring us to our knees. Good luck to you and don't forget that you can come here any time. I know It's been my saving grave so hopefully it can be yours too
nicola_01942 Sillymop
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Hahahaha no worries😂. Ive had health anxiety for 2 and a half years now, it seemed to start about 12months after the birth of my second child, then completely spiralled out of control after a funeral me and my partner went to back in september 2014. Ive tried CBT twice and has done nothing. I went bk to docs today in tears and i think she is going to refer me to gyne... even though she doesnt think i need too😕. Ive never been told ive got an ectropion before and after LOTS of googling i keep thinking what if its cervical cancer, my smears have always been ok upto now and im not due another till Oct 2017. She did say she wanted me to try meds so i agreed after putting it off for 2years. Yes your right i worry soooo much about my children that something awful is going to happen to me and i wont be here... its such an awful feeling. Im only 29 and just want to be happy again, i used to be so happy, loud and outgoing and now its all gone xx
Sillymop nicola_01942
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Nicola,
We are made by a complex variety of emotions. Happiness and feeling calm or content and only three of these. In the scheme of things and when you think of the other hundred things we are prone to feel, three is a tiny number. Oddly, these three small emotions are given the most emphasis and are held high above all else. The other emotions are disregarded because they do not make us feel how we "believe we should feel" - and yet, without the ignored emotions we would not know what happiness, serenity and calm were.
You feel bad, but the feelings you have are not wrong. I think you sound as though you have convinced yourself that to feel anything less than perfect is wrong.
It is impossible to feel 100% all of the time. Not a single person on this planet does, despite the images the project on Facebook.
You are dealing with anxiety and fear and acknowledging your immortality. You have children who are utterly dependant on you - of course you will feel frightened/scared/anxious. You name it...you are Ok to feel it. At the end of each of those fears is one thing - love.
These horrid sensations are born from love. If we didn't love we wouldn't care and if we didn't care we wouldn't worry...
Stop blaming yourself and seek out some counselling. Allow someone to help you explore your feelings, to address them openly and to stop blaming yourself.
You will be just fine