Health anxiety ....feel like I'm gonna crack up

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Hello I'll keep this as brief as I can but I'm hoping someone can help. I've been feeling dizzy/lightheaded for weeks and headaches when I wake up. I had some bloods done and urine samples sent in which have come back showing high levels of blood in my urine. I've been referred to the hospital but me being me I'm literally sending myself crazy with worry. I look at my one year old son and start crying thinking I'm not gonna see him grow up, this ends up with me walking round the house crying to myself, feeling dizzy and then the ringing in my ears gets worse. I've had this ringing in my ears ever since the doc requested tests and it hasn't gone. Everything sounds louder and when my baby shrieks it literally hurts my ears and the ringing gets louder. I'm finding it so hard to cope thinking I'm about to leave my little boy if this is cancer or something. 

Anxiety about health and anxeity in General is ruining my life. My partner doesn't understand had my work colleagues ridicule me for it and blame it on the job I do (I work In healthcare). I truth I've ALWAYS been a worrier and can never chill. 

Anyway, what I really wanna know (sorry for rambling) is it you think the dizziness and ringing in my ears might not be the kidney/bladder/brain cancer I've diagnosed myself with! Could this actually be anxiety? 

Actually thinking of going to A&E in the morning because I can't cope thinking I'm dying but they're gonna think I'm insane. My doc has referred me routinely for the blood in my urine but with this dizziness/ lightheadedness I'm thinking it's gotta be cancer. Feel like a totally different person to the person I was a few weeks ago. I've had citalopram in the past but don't wanna take it again. I don't feel depressed ....I feel like I live in a big bubble of anxiety which I can usually control but can't at the moment. 

If you've managed to read through this ....well done!! 

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    I know health anxiety can make these things feel so threatening, and it all feels so genuine- your doing the right thing by being checked. I also know that no matter of reassurance will help. All I can say is seek therapy to help with the underlying anxiety - there's always a root cause. Once the anxiety is under control so too will the health anxiety
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    Hey Nicola

    Firs things first I want to let you know that everything is absolutely normal and you are not alone. I have self diagnosed myself with laods of things lymphoma, brain tumour and all sorts of silly stuff. 

    These symptoms you are experiencing are created by anxiety it's called psychosomatism, currently I'm dizzy all the time, I have headaches most days, I feel sick all day most days. I generally feel crap, I convinced myself I had some form of cancer

    Now I realise it is simply anxiety making me feel this way, as you said you are a worrier. So you sub-consciously worry about all these illness' and this is why you experience these symptoms. 

    We don't have cancer we have something I consider worse ANXIETY and thanks to forums like this we can all help each other realise this. 

    Don't get me wrong, we'll never be fully cured but through time we will get better !

    I also have ringing in the ears (tinnitus) it's a symptom of generalised anxiety disorder along with eye floaters. So it's all good.

    Take Care

    Shaun

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    Thank you for your replies I'm glad I'm not alone and that others are dealing with this too. I went to the hospital today about the bleeding  ....no joy. Basically told to wait for my appt which isn't till the end of September sad I said but I'm gonna go mad by then but obviously this doesn't concern them. I know rationally my symptoms could be due to a number of conditions besides cancer and the doc tried to reassure me and even said it had happened to him before but I can't help imagining I'm gonna get the worst news in the world.

    I became as obsessed with my health after I lost my first son. I was pregnant and developed blood in my urine and a few days later I went for a scan at 21 weeks pregnant and they told me he had died a few days before. This haunts me. I then had to go through with the delivery and funeral etc. I then got pregnant with my second son and lived in a state of panic for 9 months so it's obviously my past that is making me like this. 

    Irwin ...I will look into getting that book. Thanks 

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