Health Anxiety, I am at a loss

I know exactly what that feels like. And it’s not fun. Are you staying busy enough? School? Work? I do notice that things get worse when I am not busy enough. Sounds like you have tried everything. I did the same thing and it really came down to the fact that I had to work on myself. Nobody can do this for me although I know that things like counseling is available but we have to actually do the work on a daily basis. And it does take a long time. I haven’t gotten there yet myself. I am sorry you are having to go through this.

I can relate really well. I'm no health expert, however but I have grown up with anxiety practically since I've been born so naturally I've found my own ways to cope with my anxiety. Then again, it's different for every person and like I've said I'm no health expert and I think we require medical treatment too.

So basically, I found that distractions are my best form of coping with anxiety. For example, I am a person that really enjoys gaming and watching series or YouTube. I have social anxiety as well, so communicating with people irl also really made me anxious but because of my gaming nature I've met many nice, understanding online people that became my internet friends that I can text or voice chat almost daily, and often times they usually helped me get my mind off of things that makes me anxious even if momentarily but that moments are really powerful for me than none at all. I've had many of that friends since a kid and they've been around for more than 8 years. I wouldn't have survived for as long as I have without technology and their support/friendship. Often when I'm in public and I feel really anxious, I would have my phone out and be texting someone, something many people do these days so it's not that out of the ordinary. When they weren't available, I would have a mobile game or a book to keep myself busy with. Literally anything intriguing that can keep your attention is really nice too.

When I'm just at home, I would keep myself busy with hobbies and always have some form of communication be it with my online friends or just my dog or family. Instead of "positive thoughts" (it never works trust me) I instead have thoughts like "if the world ends, everyone will experience it too not just me." as an example. I always just try to maintain the mindset that if sh-t happens, it happens with everyone/anyone. It's difficult to explain it in words. I hope it isn't too complicated to understand. Oh, and if there's things like a test making me anxious- my mindset is like.. Oh well, I'll fail anyway but I may as well try and do it to the best of my capabilities.

It sounds very counter intuitive but it's what had helped with my anxiety throughout exams etc. Another complex thing to explain.

Positive thoughts definitely never worked for me, so i hope this could help better. It's similar to maintaining a f-ck this attitude. For the physical stress symptoms(if you have any) , I unfortunately have no advice other than receiving aid by your therapist and medication. (I'm working on this myself too.)

Often times companionship is really helpful, plus with companionship you can rely on, you can try and maintain the mindset similar to that of them monitoring your well-being. If for example my mom noticed something was really wrong with me (when it comes to illness or diseases) she'll suggest going to the hospital or doctor or giving me some medication, but this is rare since I am usually physically healthy most of the time hence I never have to worry about it.

I know not everyone have companionship, but I hope you do have or can find companionship like this ❤️

I know you mentioned therapy, but have you tried hypnotherapy?

I had health anxiety and saw a hypnotherapist and it worked wonders.

Everytime you think something almost argue with yourself, 'well who says I have that? why do I think that? The people who trained to find these things out wouldn't say I'm fine if I'm not' - I know you won't believe it and it takes time but you just have to keep saying that over and over, because trust me the doctors would know if something was seriously physically wrong with you. My therapist always reminded me that it is in the doctors best interest to find out what's wrong.. say you went for a symptom and they had even a seed of doubt that it could be that, they would absolutely investigate because the lawsuit if they didn't wouldn't be worth not checking if they left it.

Also, my worry was alot to do with the brain, so I find an eye exam where they also take photos of behind your eye very useful. Costs a bit more but they can tell if there's any build up of pressure.

I'm so sorry you're through this. I know it's tough! I suffer with an unrelated panic disorder now, so I know how tough it is and I was CRIPPLED by health anxiety but you will get better! It takes time and alot of arguing with yourself!