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I have had health anxiety since I was 34. I am almost 42 years old and it still consuming my life. My coworker said it seems like I always need something to worry about. I don't see it that way. Now that I am getting older I constantly worry about my health. I have gained weight but I am afraid to lose weight. If I lose a few pounds I start to think I am sick and dying. Recently I found a weird brown spot in an unusual place and honestly I didn't think much of it until my boss had a biopsy for skin cancer. I immediately went into panic mode and made an appointment. My anxiety was so out of control that my sons father stopped talking to me. We didn't talk for almost two weeks and I had not one anxiety attack because I was so focused on thinking he was with someone else. We are now talking again and he explained that he doesn't understand anxiety and I need help. Now I am back to having anxiety. I feel every single twinge of any pain and think I am dying. I am now freaking out because obviously I am going to die one day. But how? When? Will it hurt? Will I be alone? Where will my kids go? I don't have much family or support. I see elderly people and it causes anxiety. Disease commercials freak me out. I am starting to think my coworker may be right. How come I didn't have anxiety when I was consumed by something else? Any thoughts?
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