health anxiety, ocd-it gets better.

Hello everyone!

Last time when I wrote about my struggles here (it was probably a month ago) my life was..horrible. I just re-read my text and started balling my eyes out. I have OCD and few months ago I started having random body jerks and I started obsessing over my health.. and you guys know how it goes... sometimes I think that If I obsessed the same way over a human I would be in jail by now 😄 but these few months while I was obsessively googling my symptoms, that was my personal jail. I was unable to get out and I thought the cycle would just go on and on and on so If you are reading this and you feel like your story is similiar just listen to me:

It gets better. it ends. the cycle is breakable. I'll try to write down some tips that really helped me

1. Follow pages that discuss issues likes yours
2. don't be afraid to speak up
3. verbalize your fears, so that way you can see how irrational they can be sometimes
4. understand that you don't have control over the next second and accept it
5. don't say that you just need time no, you need action.
6. listen to music! it helps a lot
7. google symptom only if it lasts more then 24 hours
8. stop seeking reassurance and then not trusting it if you get it
9. drink a lot of water (listen, I know it sounds literally annoying at this point but it helps!)
10. forgive yourself.

I understand how hard it can be to get your mind off of things that are constantly in your brain, sometimes you might feel like giving up and some days can be worse then others but that's completely okay and a very important part of recovery process. you are strong, valid and a true warrior. Some people would struggle to last even 1 day with constant health scares but look at you, fighting, searching for answers, waking up every day and not giving up. I am proud of you for doing that. this page gave me an amazing friend that I talk with daily, we both google our symptoms quite rarely (almost completely stopped). so sometimes even the darkest times can have amazing outcomes. If you told me 6 months ago that I would be sitting here writing this, I would laugh at your face but here am I! Half a year of my precious life taken away by fears and "what ifs" that is something I still can't forgive myself.... I mean yes, you could die right now, but you could also live for 100 more years... and as shakespeare once said: 'It izzz what it izzz".

Have a beautiful day and QUIT googling. you don't have cancer, tumor or lime disease and even if you did which you don't!!!!) what would worrying change?

I love you!

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