I’ve been addicted to oxycodone and heroin for 2 years and my tolerance has gone through the roof. I’ve spent so much money and I’m sure once I get sober I’m gonna really start having a pity party for myself. I tried detoxing before but I took my Suboxone too soon and the misery I went through from precipitated withdrawals sent me straight back to an even heavier addiction. My story is similar to so many but I’m so scared of withdrawals. I’ve managed to get my hands on 6 Suboxones and a full prescription of klonopins so I’m going to try again. I don’t even get any enjoyment out of these drugs anymore. This time I’m going to force myself to wait at least 24 hours but I’m up to a minimum of 150mg of oxycodone and 2 grams of heroin a day. I can’t believe I even function at this level. I’m hiding this from everyone so I have nobody to turn to for support. Anyone going through this and wants to share experiences or just words of encouragement I’m here. I’m not a religious person but I do know it’s gonna take something or someone stronger than myself to get me through this. I’m only 8 hours in and feel like death but I’m sure a lot of it is in my head. The struggle is real but if I don’t do this now I’m afraid for my child growing up without a mom. I pray the Suboxone helps me being I’m coming off such a large habit.