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Hi to everyone, I'm a 24 year old girl who came to UK last year for doing my postgraduate study. I am on antidepressants nearly 8 years. In 2012, I suffered from anxiety disorder and I was like a ghost for nearly 6 months (couldn't sleep, eat, couldn't focus on anything else, constantly feeling unwell, anxious, upset, waiting for to die and desprate). My doctor changed my meds into 30 mg Paroxetine, after I started it I feel better and hopeful. Than I came to UK (still in here), everything was fine until 7th of September. I am in a relationship with my soulmate and going to marry with him in this November, was exploring touristic sights in UK, working as a volunteer at the charity two days a week, very positive and hopeful about future, only had panic attacks 3 times in that 12 month. However, in 7th of September 2014 everything has changed, I started to feel a horrible headache and neckache which was started in 4th of September. I started to scare that what if I'm having a aneurysm or something serious and started to think about possible scenarios. I ended up going to the emergency care, waited for nearly 3 hours (which increased my anxiety and fear) and gave up and went back to my home. That night, my shakes and gagging started. I couldn't sleep properly that night. Next day, I go to my Health Centre and ask for an appointment but they said it's impossible and told me to go to the Walking Centre. I did, the doctor in the walking centre told me that it's a headache and perscribed me painkillers. But, I wasn't convince and decided to go to the hospital again. I waited for 2 hours (during that time my anxiety level was increasing) and went to the doctor. He told me the exact thing: headache and backache. I was kind of convinced this time felt relief for 1hour. When I came back home and think about it, (as it's all pscyhological again), all of my fears started again: What if I would experience that bad and long anxiety disorder again, what if I need a doctor immediately and can't reach him.. etc. All of my positive thinks about my life and world changed since 5days, I am constantly having a fearful thoughts about anxiety and panic attacks.I couldn't go to my volunteery work, I can only go for a walk in the park. I can't think of my future plans or my daily life activities I feel tired, desperate and waiting for a death. Did anyone even feel like this before? Please,respond me
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