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I, I'm really sorry if I am taking your time, reader, but what is happening to me is slowly killing me.
i've recently went through hard times, because I'm a student and I had some problems with my friends during the summer holidays, I lost contact with them, because I wanted to take it chill and just have great time with my family. (Friends stress me out, I have no idea why, I'm just scared of being with people, except my family, I'm pathetic, I guess.)
So when I went back to school, they ignored me, and now I'm here. For now I am 'alone', but it's pretty great, I guess. i feel like i'm more under control of my life. But here isn't the problem.
i am a shy girl, and it is really hard for me to interact with people, make friends, do oral presentations... and that's the problem. Thinking of something linked about doing something alone stresses me out. Like, eating, I always stresses me, because, I don't know what table I'll eat at, nor who's gonna judge me while Imm alone at that table. I can think about a thing that for a lots doesn't matter, for hours, because for me it's the scariest s**t ever!
these days I feel like my heart is constantly at the max speed, I'm always 'shaking', I always feel uncomfortable.. And I feel like I'm about to get in depression ! Even while reading this, I feel like my head is leaving my body, it's prettty scary, and I'm even wondering, am I becoming crazy ? Imm.. I don't know what to do, help me, please.
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