Help! In a bad way... scared and insomnia before even tackling withdrawal
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Hello good people off this forum. I have finally decided to write about my Mirtazapine troubles after a solid week reading forums.
As I write this, I am an anxious wreck, 'cyberchondria' of constant googling mirtazapine and withdrawal stories. I have been on 15mg for 5 months, loosely prescribed by a locum doctor in a time of family upheaval (I had to return from abroad following my dad having an accident.) Ironically he is fine now and I am the one with problems.
I tried tapering 2 weeks ago to 7.5mg, started to feel myself and emotions coming back but the withdrawals hit home soon after in the form of insomnia so I reinstated back to 15mg. Ever since I have become progressively worse, and reading suicide related deaths (robin Williams for instance) to this drug has me terrified.
I am a 28 year old male, 6 foot and skinny. Mirtazapine has done little for my weight gain.
I don't know what is up with me the last few days with insomnia, no appetite, scary thoughts and an inability to focus on anything except these forums.
Sometimes I fear I will have insomnia for life (read that on some website) and sometimes I think 1 or 2 years from my now this will all have been a hellish nightmare.
I just want to be drug free and live my life like I used to, happy-go-lucky type character.
Honestly, been depressed in bed for days was much better than been hot-wired with anxiety.
Tomorrow i will visit my doctor and see what he says, having periously discussed moving from mirtazapine to prozac following a meeting with the mental health team.
I am lucky, however, that I have the support of my parents who do their best for me.
From my research I have seen the most positive posts regarding withdrawal are 15mg alternative nights with week 3 taking every third night etc.
In summary compulsive googling, having a taster of withdrawal have my cortisol flooding my brain. Ironic... debilitating anxiety before even withdrawing from an anti-anxiety drug.
For reference, I have withdrawn from Sertraline, with the main problem being brain zaps.
Does anybody have any advice for my predicament?
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Guest MikeTheWorrier
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It's horrible anno, I'm not a Dr but my nurse was forever telling me "Stop googling" I didnt agree at the time but now I can see it caused me unnecessary anxiety. Most of what I had read, I never experienced. Have you tried alternative medicine, things like Passiflora, excellent for anxiety?
I snapped my 15mgs tab in half at night, kept PPMP & Phenergan by my bed & chewed PPMP if/when I felt bad.
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Guest kaz_52274
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Everybody's different, you may , or may not have these withdrawal symptoms. Withdrawing slowly under supervision helps. 👍
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caroline_1957 MikeTheWorrier
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I managed to get to 6mg tonight going to 4.5mg I reduce every month and it’s hell my head is ready to explode and I’ve become a recluse please try and change to something else if you can mirtazapine has wrecked my life
sarah24378 MikeTheWorrier
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