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olly50249
olly50249

So basically 2 weeks ago on Wednesday i decided to go on a binge I’m not a big drug person and have only done it a few times I decided to take cocaine and drink throughout the night with some friends I’ve only ever done cocaine 4 to 5 times when I was younger I’m not a big drug user and believe me this experience I’m having has put me off for life the next day after doing the drug I felt completely anxious and depressed the worst kind I’ve had to take 3 weeks off work but the past 2 days I’ve been having OCD type thoughts horrible thoughts of my loved ones things I would never do but my mind won’t let these horrible thoughts go and because I want them to go so much they worsen and persist in my mind which also triggers the anxiety and depression seen my gp they prescribed citalopram I feel so scared and worried about this will I ever be Normal again please will somebody give me some advice I’m 23 male p.s haven’t taken meds yet I’m waiting to see a physchologist 

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  • joy63749
    joy63749 olly50249

    Posted

    Oh Olly

    Please just know that you are precious and when you feel better you will be all the stronger for this difficult time you will have come through. 

    Recognising that this is your body's way of coping with stress and acknowledging that you are completely normal will be a real positive step. 

    When I was feeling suicidal and the only thing stopping me from harming myself was my 3 beautiful children, I ended up crying at the Doctors.....who explained to me (and this is the important bit) that it is the strongest people who cope with all the stress in their life and try to continue coping and not 'letting people down' that just go on coping and finally reach a level where their body says "hang on, you can't keep suppressing this stress!!" 

    That's when you get the symptoms: anxiety and self negativity.

    I truly hope that you can think of at least one small thing in your life that is a positive, just a little thing like thinking about someone who has helped you or you have helped, or been a friend for.

    Look for tiny happy things every day. 

    You will get better. And one day you'll be helping someone else. xxxx

    PS: I find just smiling at someone or helping someone (like opening a door in a shop for them etc) nurtures positivity. You'll see that the little things matter.

    • olly50249
      olly50249 joy63749

      Posted

      Hi everybody just want to say thanks to joy for that lovely message I appreciate the time and effort you put into it I had some therapy today I’m really struggling today to be honest I have this constant thought of somebody shouting in my ear it’s horrible and I feel completely hopeless I don’t know whether anybody else has had the same experience I triggered the thought this morning and obviously I worried again and so it wouldn’t go I’m suffering a lot I’m hoping to get well soon as I feel very hopeless I’m worried I will never be better again I just want to enjoy life but I’m just over analysing everything and internalising everything too I don’t know whether the medication will help me or not and I’m panicking a lot today 
    • katecogs
      katecogs olly50249

      Posted

      Olly these are all so typical of this condition - albeit everyone has their own personal scary thoughts.    Thoughts, over analysing, head chatter, feeling hopeless, panic etc etc are all part of this condition.  Personally I'd say don't try and struggle without the meds, as often people get deeper into the mess of it all.  Meds can take a long time to work but they'll work quicker than just CBT or yourself trying to fix it.

      I had this condition for years and within 6 months of starting meds I recovered.  Yes I had help with understanding this condition which helped so much, but because I'd suffered for so long it had become a bad habit and so needed meds to help.  

      I'll send you a book and website link that I pass to lots of people.  The author cured himself and didn't take meds, but the method and meds together make a stronger combination.

      K x

    • olly50249
      olly50249 katecogs

      Posted

      The mental health team has just called they advised I take the medication and they have arranged a CBT session but I’m on a waiting list sad 
    • lois95799
      lois95799 olly50249

      Posted

      Fantastic your on your way to recovery...that's nothing to be sad about..be happy there is Medication for these type of issues...feel free to keep us posted...

    • michelle45874
      michelle45874 olly50249

      Posted

      It wont take long Olly to get an appointment i have just got a 4 week programme for CBT x I think its good they have advised to take the medication you will soon start to feel better x
    • olly50249
      olly50249 michelle45874

      Posted

      Thanks guys so supportive feeling low now my main concern is how will I feel in the next 2 weeks of taking the medication? Did anybody struggle? x
    • lois95799
      lois95799 olly50249

      Posted

      Not every body goes thru motions of ssris..you could well be one of the lucky ones...but don't dwell on the med... concentrate on you feeling normal...

    • olly50249
      olly50249 lois95799

      Posted

      Ok I will see how I feel tomorrow and come to a final decision but definitely going through with the CBT x
    • olly50249
      olly50249

      Posted

      Hi everybody had a crap morning but going to try and go out and keep busy how is everybody today ? 
    • michelle45874
      michelle45874 olly50249

      Posted

      Hi Olly you will get there dont worry you are doing really well keeping busy i couldnt do anything x Are you on the tablets yet
    • olly50249
      olly50249 michelle45874

      Posted

      Will take my first tablet tonight I think I will let you all know thanks Michelle had a bad morning constant bad thoughts still but trying to keep positive had a cry on my own for a minute but keeping busy is all I can try to think to do today x
    • michelle45874
      michelle45874 olly50249

      Posted

      All of us have been there and we have all had the same thoughts x you will get there i am on day 30 and managed to do a full week at work x I think you are doing really well you should be proud of yourself
    • olly50249
      olly50249 michelle45874

      Posted

      How do you feel whilst on the first 2 weeks of meds ? I’m so glad you’ve recovered it gives me a bit of hope and understanding of what I’m going though x
    • lois95799
      lois95799 olly50249

      Posted

      Olly every one's different so what might be ok for some ..others will experience some side effects. If you don't experience side effects .. usually means meds not working...just keep that in mind.

    • michelle45874
      michelle45874 olly50249

      Posted

      Its no worse than what u r experiencing at the moment and if u feel like sleeping sleep if u feel like a walk do that x just try and stay positive
    • olly50249
      olly50249 michelle45874

      Posted

      Just gna chill again tonight hopefully have a better morning tomoz anybody doing anything nice this evening? 
    • lois95799
      lois95799 olly50249

      Posted

      Why suffered...is your choice...just like Michelle says your already feeling bad........
    • olly50249
      olly50249 lois95799

      Posted

      Yes you are right Lois See how it all goes I will definitely take the meds if I continue to suffer 
    • michelle45874
      michelle45874 olly50249

      Posted

      Why are you holding off taking the meds its nothing to be ashamed of it helps balance the chemicals in your mind x What dose has the doctor given you to take
    • olly50249
      olly50249 michelle45874

      Posted

      Just thinking maybe I can get better soon without it but yes I am struggling and to be fair I’ve decided yes I am going to take them I’ve been prescribed 10mg I really hope they work for me 
    • lois95799
      lois95799 olly50249

      Posted

      Iam also on ten... perhaps you can cut the tablets to avoid hard side effects...just saying...most folks do ..
    • lois95799
      lois95799 olly50249

      Posted

      I meant to say cut in half...if you do ..tell your doctor
    • olly50249
      olly50249

      Posted

      Gna chill tonight now talk to you all tomorrow thanks again for the support guys x
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