Help needed x
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Week 5 today on 30mg citalopram
Was on them before and they were amazing.
Depression severe again. Didn't have it yesterday maybe a little.
Anxiety really bad too.
Is it time to give up on these now?
Or do I keep going and pray they kick in soon.
as I haven't noticed much improvement at all. I had a day or two last week where I wasn't too bad, still bad but tiny bit better and that's it.
Anyone take a lot longer to notice a difference at all?
really struggling and feel like giving up. every day is a battle to get to the end x
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Potatoghost
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anyone else feel like this week 5?
lois95799 Potatoghost
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mr potato head .let me remind you that five weeks is nothing .it takes many months.iam one of the perfect examples of stayin 8months on this med and fully recovering.every day you are going to feel those ups and downs .and thru out many weeks different side effects will appear out of the blue.thats just how these meds work.saying a prayer for you to stay on this med.
Potatoghost lois95799
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why do side effects change? I feel so crap lois x I see so many people getting better already and I don't see any improvements at all. its rediculous x seems to have hot some kind of peak atm. it was sunny outside and that made my anxiety and depression skyrocket. that cant be normal because it was sunny it triggered me x 😓
lois95799 Potatoghost
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triggering effects are all so common with ssri.sometimes it does not make any sense to me because all ssri are based on seratonin.but yet all are so different.and then you got to take into consideration the withdralws from the sert.our desparation of getting better is so sensitive that we tend to panic over any thing new daily.
Potatoghost lois95799
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why are triggering effects so common? is it because it increases the anxiety and depression at first?
definitely have a different thing I panic over every day it's something new x
then it's like a cycle I go round in circles with all the anxiety x
toria_07298 Potatoghost
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sounds like you have alot of withdrawal mixed in to me! most people who settle quicker havent messed around with other meds, probably doesnt help but ive felt like that most days for 2 bloody years and im not dead x
Potatoghost toria_07298
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you're an absaloute warrior! that's why!
what the wierd triggering thing? is that something you get a lot too x
jane09529 Potatoghost
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hi potatoghost
I am now on 8 weeks of 30mg and still very up and down. Anxiety seems better but quite low and depressed. Doctor has given me another few weeks off work (already had 6 weeks off) but like you I am beginning to get a bit despairing. Would probably be better at work but am teacher so very pressurised job. Doctor says try not to put a time limit on things but hard not to do that. Am now wondering if 30mg is too high and whether I should have persevered with 20mg. So many difficult questions. Will persevere because I can't think what else to do! Would do anything for miracle cure ! Try to keep your chin up !
Potatoghost jane09529
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hey James thank you 😊
if it's any help when I recovered last time once the anxiety had started easing up I was left feeling pretty low most of the time but it did even out eventually. i would find my moods would get slowly better and better x
it's hard to know if something is too high isn't it x i would say stick with it i reckon as it can take longer x
did you feel really terrible at week 5 too? x thank you 😊
Potatoghost
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jane not james stupid auto correct lol x
laura45992 Potatoghost
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I still have issues and I have been consistently on 20mg since Aug
Potatoghost laura45992
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hey laura x still not any better? are you getting there slowly at all?
what are the issues you have if that's ok to ask x
lois95799 Potatoghost
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potato please listen to kate .stay on your dose .why do these changes occur to you differently daily is because your nervous system and the changing of the meds have thrown you into this drama.stay the course i promise you aint going to stay like that.
laura45992 Potatoghost
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I mean, I was doing well until Christmas Eve and its like Ive regressed. Anxiety very high. Intrusive thoughts back. Stomach unsettled. Lower mood, mostly just from the frustration of the regression. Lots of time with family over holidays have me on high "alert". Holiday is still going this weekend. Praying getting back to a normal schedule next week will help. I do fear the regression is here to stay and am going to have to start back a ways, but Im hoping that is just the anxiety talking. Ive had to reintroduce Xanax on occasion over the last two weeks.
Potatoghost laura45992
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oh no x thats probably because of all the stress over christmas and like you said being on high alert bless you x
going back to your normal schedule will definitely help x blips do pass and its definitely your anxiety telling you its hear to stay. I know exactly how you feel when the anxiety tells you its here to stay x x last time you felt like this you got better didn't you x and it didn't stay x
how long on your dose now it's been a while since we spoke last x
Potatoghost lois95799
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thank you x I will stay the course x I always seem to hit a wall at this point where I just feel so crap and terrible so I need to try and power through as best i can x
omg I'm turning onto someone else we all know lol.
it just feels never ending x ðŸ˜
laura45992 Potatoghost
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Potato,
Ive been on the same dose five months. Total 11 months.
I really do hope you find your answer!!
Potatoghost laura45992
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is it still really bad for you 😥😥
joan30284 laura45992
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The holidays always seems to give me angziety.My doctor gave me a low dose of Zanax....o.05 mg .I understand your angziety during the holidays.I would talk to your doctor.I see a phsyciatrist who has given me Celexa.Not sure if it is helping...Dont give up.Talk to a proffesional
rob37052 laura45992
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hi laura
how are you?
havent spoken to you in a while
hope your good
rob
laura45992 rob37052
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Hi Rob,
Was doing really well before the holidays and then took a few steps back. We are done with all of our family events now, so Im hoping I get back to where I was. You??
rob37052 laura45992
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hi laura
the holiday season is allways stressfull, we had everybody at ours, it was great dont get me wrong but hard work!
i was looking forward to going back to work & some normality!
im alternating from 15 to 10, i want to settle on 10, im trying to be mindful, getting a good nights sleep, not drinking too much, eating well & excercising.
sorry you ve hit a few hurdles, sounds like you were doing great.
do you think christmas was a trigger?
laura45992 rob37052
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Hi Rob,
Yes I think it was a trigger. Im settling some now, but still tired a lot and rough mornings. How is getting down to 10mg going? Do you feel like less is better for you?
rob37052 laura45992
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hi laura
i went from 20 to 15, stayed on 15, now taking 15 to 10, been 2 months now. I feel in myself the lower dose is better for me.
dropping down i had a few dodgy moments but i just kept my head down & ploughed through, read alot of positive stuff regarding anxiety.....helped alot.
i wonder why your mornings have become bad again laura when you were doing so well?
at times its so hard & difficult to understand!
laura45992 rob37052
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Ive really wondered if I should try to reduce too. Luckily, even in the mornings, I CAN get up and move where I couldnt early on. I just feel tired all the time. Some of that is because the anxiety had made me lazy and because I was an avid long distance runner and havent run since I was diagnosed (partly bc I also had hip surgery at the same time-perfect storm). I really need to get back on the road. I think getting back to my love of running would help tremendously. I jast have to actually make myself do it!!
Im so glad youre feeling good about moving down. Do you plan to stay on 10mg indefinitely?
rob37052 laura45992
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im going to give it till the end of january then drop down to 10 & stay there for as long as i need to.
its intresting you say your a keen runner
im a keen road cyclist....& force myself to get out, i enjoy the freedom & the head space to chill out, i know its really difficult & i so get it but excersing is so benefical when you have things like anxiety, it defo is to me!
im sure these are things you already know only to well, its just the getting up & motivating yourself which is difficult.
ive just spoke to katecogs about it & she agreed, its almost like you have to do the oppisite of what your mind is telling you to do!
if you love it laura you must be sure missing it....
laura45992 rob37052
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Rob, you still around? How are you doing??