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Hi I am a 47 year old binge drinker. I do not drink every day and can easily not drink for weeks at a time. I only ever drink in the evenings. About 5 years ago i tried AA but found I couldnt talk in the meetings and also although I itentified with some stories I am not physically dependant but I would say I am psychologically dependant. I do not know what the triggers are, I could be sad and need to relax or I could have worked hard that day and believe I deserve a bottle of wine. If I can keep it to one or two glasses I am ok but I never know when it will turn into a bottle or God forbid two. I also binge smoke when i have these wine/beer frenzies and never smoke the rest of the time. It is like being possessed. I am fully aware that in time this is probably a death sentence. When hungover and ashamed I sometime think that would be a blessed relief. But I realise that is selfish behaviour. What I want to do is get better but do not know where to go. My work colleagues, family and friends are not aware of these binges. Or if they are they have not commented for I do most of them alone, where the consequences are less. No one has told me I have a drink problem but aside for the health, weight ( I am now 18 kilos overweight) there is the financial drain of buying 3 or four bottles of wine a week. It could be more I do not count. Can anyone here help me. Thank you
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