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Here it comes again: my haunting past

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sherry76727
sherry76727

I wl be 50 on my next bday. Today i have spent crying over feeling desperate to feel ok, or desperate to feel like i am worthy of living. I was diagnosed at age 26 and have been on and off meds, and am currently self medicating because it works best. But i know ot will kill me if i dont stop.

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  • sherry76727
    sherry76727

    Posted

    Thought at least i would reply to see if it is working.
  • randy20765
    randy20765 sherry76727

    Posted

    Sherry please hang in there. Please try to get an appointment with your doctor or get a new doctor. Maybe they can try new meds or a combination that will work. I pray that you will stop self-medicating and get the right treatment. Someone i Love very much is going through the same thing as you.
  • callianne_65675
    callianne_65675 sherry76727

    Posted

    50 is a funny age, I know when I turned 50 a lot changed for me. It's like we look back into the past at the things we have done and the 'mistakes' we feel we made or past hurts. 

    I'm not going to say it's easy but also I feel being female we also have hormonal issues too you know. It's a tough mix to deal with. I am so with you there. I am not on meds. (Long story but I do want to take meds) and so now am seeking other ways to try and help myself. 

    If you can take meds go to the Doctor I think the best approach is holistically, meaning looking after ourselves (easier said than done) working with our Doctor and our recovery team. (If they are any use of course) . I hope you feel better 

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