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heroin left me with nothing

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nicole_1984
nicole_1984

heroin is the most evil and greedy drug of all it completly strips you till u have nothing and no-one but heroin.i have lost 2 houses already i was in a violent relationship wen i began dabblin in opiates a DF habit led to a valium habit which led to a heroin habit,we pawned beg stole and borrowed until we had nothing and no one it led me to prostitution and soon enough i was jagging which led to a life of shoplifting everyday and even got so low we were raking buckets.i am now in a battered wives hostel i had to basically flee to start afresh i have nothing left but luckily still have friends and family hanging by a thread to hold on to the hardest part is the loneliness my ex is now off with another prostitute to feed his jagging/meth/alcohol/valium habit they broke into my last house and trashed it killed my aquarium stole my clothes and used it as a jagging den the only people i know are all linked to heroin which makes it so solid to break free my last boyfriend was a dealer who used powder power to control me but went 'on his arse' which led me to help him get back on his feet which meant back to the old life of shoplifting and using even tho i'm on a meth script he's currently on remand b4 he was he had begun to get violent with me i guess cos he lost his powder poweri'm dreadin his release cos i'm scared he will drag me back down.all the junkies have turned against me and i constantly have to watch my back.i'm up myself for pulling a pin out and threatin a shop asistant with it.and to think i passed all my exams etc had the office job,car but now i'm 24 and don't know where to turn or who to trust.my advice to anyone is to keeep clear of the needle cos once that gets hold its all downhill from there belive me. :cry:

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  • Clare88
    Clare88

    Posted

    That's great that you are on a methadone project and trying to get off of the drugs.Maybe you should think about moving away to get away from all the unhelpful people in your life and make a fresh start.

    We have all done wrong/bad things in our live's which we regret but it's up to us to turn it around and make something of ourselves.

    You've already started on the road to recovery, well done smile

  • Guest
    Guest

    Posted

    well done...heroin is hell theres no doubt about that. i was 21 when i got myself hooked although actually i was only 16 when i first had it . i guess it was only a matter o time b4 i got a proper habit...and a proper habit certainly i ended up with-i was on a tenth a day within months. Of course i was willilng to do pretty much anything for my drug and my wonderful boyfriend didn't exactly discurage me from goion on the game to feed our habits. So the years ticked on by and i'd make the occasssional pathetic attempt to get clean. I managed to keep things reasonably togehther for the first 7 yrs. Then got myself on the stone as well. A year later and finally ready to stop. That was 6 months ago and really it was only once gtried to seriously stop i reaslised what i'd done to myself. My head is a mess. I am a mess. I've just staRTED ON SUBBIES so hopefully they'll keep me away from the allure o messing up . Granted i'd managed to stop using most o time but being on methodone as i was meant i could still use couple o times a wk and then still stuck in the whole cycle o addiction.

    i wish i'd never given in to the allure o it all. And aren't i still pay ing the price now..... :oops:

  • Tricky
    Tricky

    Posted

    To both the previous posts; well done the both of you for making the first step to get away and make the break. It's always amazed and saddened me the way that so many men that use end up using their girlfriends as their earners whilst they do nothing.

    Nicole; have a think about what Clare says about moving away. I moved from Southampton up to Manchester to get away from the gear (OK, in hindsight maybe Manchester wasn't the brightest place to go but it's where I had a job to go to) but the great thing about moving away is that you really can start again from new. You can be who you want to be and not what people think you are. If you're worried about other people bringing you down, then moving really may help.

    I can't pretend that it's not lonely at times, but you will make new friends and you don't have to reveal everything about you straight away, that can come with time and trust.

    Come whatever, to both Nicole and Nina I hope all works out for you and you can stay positive.

    Take care, have fun and good luck.

    T

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